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2007-04-13T09:58:00.000-07:00

hey all!i've moved. hmm..haha..u'll find me if you want to!=))take care!
but b4 i leave............................................
GERM LOVES 29th!!!

2007-03-11T09:03:00.000-07:00

ORIENTATION IS FINALLY OVER!but blocks is drawing near..yea..germ is laggin..no time to blog..but yea..i must say reallirealli learnt a lot this orientation..

i jus wanna express my gratitude to a few people..
YVONNE: thanks for being there to listen to me and just being there for me those 3 days
BUDDY: thanks for giving me the countless hugs and wiping off my tears
JINGSHENG: hmm..thanks for making me laugh those few days although i know u urself were damn stressed up in every way
GUAN HENG: thanks for being there to always give me advice..and for that song!=)
HUIYEN AND SIHUI: thanks for trying to crash my clan time to gimme moral support
SHUENLIN: i duno if it was intentional..but thanks for showing up on the last day of my clan time..yea..although u din do much..but i was touched that u actually came down cuz i said it was damn stressful and all
TO MY DARLING TLs: thank you all of you for putting in so much effort in that 3 days. yea i know it was hard..but u guys did it..made a difference in ur fellow J1s orientation. you guys were always there to support me in whatever ways you could..thank you so much..

yeaa..reallirealli learnt a lot from being a clan leader too.yupp..i love AQUEO!
the clan that lives under the sea
the clan that is so hot that none can resist
the clan that's the best and going to win
AQUEO!we're cute and cool!LOVES

2007-02-24T07:50:00.000-08:00

hmmm..week hasn't been realli good. plus the fact that i jus like SAW THE NEWS SAYING THAT TKGS IS GONNA PUT UP THE WHOLE PIECE OF LAND FOR AUCTION OR STH?!?!?omg!wadz going on in this world man!!!now even my school wants to sell the building..so where are the poor students supposed to go??

realised i din blog bout CCACO dinner..alright.it was quite fun i must say..to be able to meet up with them once again. somehow i realli think that people really dun appreciate sth till we lose them. hmm...i kinda miss those days in council with these people. life now aint the same anymore. although i still have some of them with me in ICC..but the feeling's just NOT there. thanks to jiaying for that delicious muffin!!=))i think we took some random spastic photos..but we FORGOT to take a group one. how smart. oh well..as usual..i was like the MAIN topic of suan-ning..WADDE HELL! i dun get what those retards get outta disturbing me!!haha..especially that 2 GOH IDIOTS! GOH REN KAI AND GOH ZHEN YANG! u all BETTER watch out.wakkaka..and hahha...liew jing sheng!wahahah..thanks for all the ENTERTAINMENT that kept me laughin through the whole dinner..u MUST BE HONOURED OKAYS!=ppp.ohh well..we had a hard time eating cuz the chair was a bit squeezy..we appeared to be sitting damn close to each other..haha.BONDING time..wakkaa..nvmm..okays...CONCLUSION: i love CCACO!=)

hmmm..so many things going on in my mind. there's REALLY nothing to motivate me to continue studying everyday. its like..i'm really sick and tired of having to push myself so far. i just hope all the effort pays off in the end. if i could turn back time, i would seriously do a lot more things. guess one of the things i would have done would be to talk to YOU and YOU. i kinda regret not doing what i've not done. but what's done done. there's nothing i can do now except wait and see and HOPE.

i seriously dun understand you. why do you always have to appear at the wrong time? just as i was about to really forget everything. u jus had to remind me. so what's your purpose here? i've always wanted to know what's going on. i can't say you didn't give me a chance to, perhaps i didn't try hard enough. oh well. but how HOW am i supposed to even try to bring this topic up? at some point of time, i just felt like really forgetting this whole thing altogether. but how am i supposed to? i've tried many ways, but i can quite confidently say that none worked out. so what now? am i supposed to just pretend i NEVER KNEW YOU IN THIS LIFE? am i supposed to pretend that you NEVER EXISTED? if you don't tell me, i wouldn't know what you want. and i've always being trying to make things go YOUR way since the start. please don't do this to me.

2007-02-23T08:57:00.000-08:00

as much as the cny period was damn boring and all, but the fact that i spent so much time jus slacking around and crapping especially with cuzz..makes me not mind living in that kinda life. wednesday was the SUPER sian-ed day. shuenlin din come to school, and i was like so bored and all. booo...plus the fact that i got back my maths test..which i terribly flung?!?haha..hmm..i studied..i'm not kidding..i realli studied..just that i din push myself for that test cuz i jus recovered from the migraines and all..haii..but who is going to believe me?omg...yeaa...this whole week of school is realli damn tiring and siann..

studies, council, personal stuff..OMG!i'm just so gonna go bonkers..i'm sososo gonna die..rahhh..and i needed to talk so much during these few days...jus had to get some things outa me..hmm..yea..at this point..how i just wish kim and zhaoey could be in NY..cuz if they were..things would have been fine..perhaps with them around, i'm a different person. that's what i feel. anyway..a big thank you goes out to all who were willing to listen to me talk and talk and talk..ohh well..i duno how much you guys actually understood..but jus being there is enough!=))thanks!especially to guan heng sihui and huiyen..yeaa...thanks!!=))and to kim and zhaoey..if EVER you two toots are reading this..GERM REALLI MISS YOU LIKE NUTS!

ohh..book just like talked to me on msn..omg!i miss her so much!she asked if i still remeber her..ohh well..how can i ever not remember this adorable girl who only knows how to say 'what the hell?!' cute la she. and i wonder when will i see her again. hmmm..she said she was expecting me a few years ago..but i nv turned up..haii....nvm...i noe one day..i'll see her again!=))

2007-02-20T07:23:00.000-08:00

heyyheyy.haha..ohh and i forgot to like ELABORATE about the WONDERFUL experience i had watching the PROTEGE with my family. alright. FIRST UP!me mum amah brudder and ah kuen jiejie went into the cinema while the rest either went toilet or bought snacks. so papa and ah teoh came in together after us..and ah teoh shouted in teochew DAMN LOUDLY asking where was his seat..wakakka..so i just giggled..haha..den nvm..after a while..da guma and the rest came in...dendenden!da guma cannot find ah teoh(uhm her husband) and my amah shouted 'AH CHOO ARH!!!ITS HERE!ITS HERE!!!' in teochew la..haha..OMG..i jus din noe what to do at that moment..its like as if we owned the cinema..okok..and so the movie started..hahah...this show is bout some drug trafficking thingy..den the starting showed some woman injecting drugs into herself and my uncle said..'MUST BE MORPHIE..MORPHIE AHH..u noe not?MORPHIE..' ohh well actually he meant morphine.hahahha..den after that he ate popcorn damn loud throughout the whole movie lar!hahaha..and in the middle his phone rang..normal pple would quickly REACH FOR UR PHONE AND REJECT THE CALL..but my CUTE uncle looked at who it was..mind u it wasn't on silent mode..DEN HE ACTUALLY PICKED UP THE PHONE AND CONVERSED NORMALLY AND LOUDLY AND EVEN WISHED THE PERSON HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!i nearly like slapped him(jkjk)hahahha..den yea..he kept on saying things that he was thinking like how the female lead was prepared to die and all..WADEVA!hahahha..oh ya..then there was this part where the male lead got his uniform and his rank was a sergeant..den the atmosphere in the cinema at that point of time was such that everyone was damn quiet..its supposed to be a moment for the audience to feel happy for the actor..den he said DAMN loudly..'WAHHH SERGEANT NIA AH???LAO MAK CHAP YIU..' which means wah sergeant oni arh?and the second part means something like feel likecrying for him cuz its sucha low rank for all he did..wADEVA LA!!!hahhaa..and i couldnt take it and luffed..hahahha...yeaa...COOL RIGHT?!?

hmmm..school's starting tomorrow. blahh..back to reality. i really dun like it. well..i'm just glad that at least for this year, i feel a lil happier in nanyang. but ohh wells. there's still so many things that i aint that satisfied with and all..but yeaa..that's life. i really wanna get done with this phase of my life. i dun mind going to school jus to hang around with people. but i just dont want to be subjected to the kinda life i'm living now. being stressed about every single assignment i do. having to think about so many things, be it frens, homework, council and all. yea..council camp. i just hope everything will turn out well..at least i want the adhoc to be proud to be in this adhoc. i'm trying hard to make that happen. on top of that..i'm still taking piano next month. pls save me....blahhhh...sian to the max

i kinda feel damn lost about all that's happening. i know there's no point regretting what i've been doing so far. but if i were given a choice, i think i would not have chosen this path. at least i'll try my best to make things work out. ohh well..at the end of the day, i still get to choose what i want to do. but then again, i dun think i'll be able to do what i really want to do now. it'll be tough..for everyone, for me too. i'm just hoping for a miracle.

2007-02-19T08:18:00.000-08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEARR!!=))

alright. i somehow still feel that this yr's new year..i dun realli feel the atmosphere..and i think its kinda sad..haii..shall do a brief update on what has been happening recently..=)

VALENTINE'S DAY!

this is one of the most high valentine's ever..at least u can feel the atmosphere..=))thank you those who gave me those lil cards..and flowers and all..not forgetting MR GOH RENKAI!thanks for that cute spoongebob that made my day!=)and also to my darling kimmie and zhaoey..thank you so much the both of you. love u to bits..a pity we couldn't make time to meet up=(.but nvmm..i felt the love!hehh..

the spoongebob that made my day. THANKS RK!=))

trying to take an artist photo of the things i received..=p

this was wad i gave to spread my love..wakkakaka

friday

it was ny's cny celebration(okay.i felt quite bad i din even think of gg back to tk to visit the teachers..oh wells...haha..it was the PEOPLE as in students that i'm missing after all.heh).so yea..i'm part of the 'RIVER ANGPOW GROUP' and we're supposed to PERFORM in school b4 going for the real performance in the night.HAHAHA..lessons was quite crappy..cuz of the performance in skl..we were released earlier to rehearse..so i only had to attend 1h of maths..and 30min of econs..well..came out of the lt with sebas and pooh boon..for some reasons..everyone was luffin at pohboon..and i duno y...anyway..went to the canteen..ate some food..met some people..got suanned like no one's business..den finally reported to the hall to rehearse. oh well..was made to stand in front for the school's performance..wadde hell..i think i just made a fool out of myself in front of the whole school.haha..wadeva..hahaha...but had fun tho..altho everyone was laughing while trying to pretend they were SUPPORTING me..ahha..den went home after that..and met the rest at city hall in the evening..woohoo..while we were in that 'waiter and waitress' look-alike costume..we saw manymany pple..bronson, yichun, roy....oh ya..and it was raining.haha..so we had a hard time travelling from esplanade to river angpow. omg when we reached there..saw this woman..on pointe..on a guy's shoulder..and standin only with one leg.freaking hell..ahhahha..and 2 girls trying to balance each other with one's head on the other's..i asked amal and rk to try..but the DIAO-ED me..wakakka..the experience was one of a kind..but it wasn't that scary after all since the spotlight was SO DAMN strong that we couldn't see the pple off stage.hahahha..met dad and mum and had billy bombers for dinner!=)

SATURDAY

new year's eve..nothing much happened..had reunion dinner..

SUNDAY

first day of new year..went to dua gu's house early in the morning to eat. den proceeded to amah hse...hmmm..okayy..manymany pple were there!=)haha..but the atmosphere jus wasnt high like the previous..we played blackjack and in between..ahha..only when we played in between that there were some high parts..tho i felt the heartache when amah had to lose $120..=(..yea..was bored stiff lar!like can u imagine..around 7 of my cousins..we were all so bored..we all found a corner each in the house and slept through the afternoon..ahhha..oh yea.and so i decided to use my phone to take some photos...

merdin and me..with my mum trying to be in the photo.hehh

TODAY!!!

went to duagu's house in the morning to take some group and family photos.

papa mama and ME!

another pic!=)

the FAMILY photo!=))

alright. i was kinda happy and glad to have been able to spend some time just to accompany and play with chenyann..it's been a while since i've done that..and what made me feel happier was that i actually understood wad she wanted and she clapped..and asked me to clap along with her1=))my heart jus almost melted at that very moment..=))))

hmm..den supposed to go for kenneth's bdae party(but apparantly it wasn't a party..those tht went to his house din even get to see him..haha)but i went to buddy's house..had a lotta fun there!haha..=))here's some pictures..oh well..we played blackjack and in between and i was ACTING high with bdp watching JJ's concert..wakaka

the pool of money when we were playing in between

jian buddy. jian pengyou and me!=))

me. buddy. bdp (buddy pointed out a good point. bpd bent down so that we wun look short..but we ALL ended up bending down..wakakka)

me being VERY FACSINATED with buddy's STINGRAY!

she's biased lar!dun wanna give the stingray light..hahhaha=)

and the last GROUP PHOTO!!=)

hmm..after that went to tampines mall to meet the rest if my relatives..din manage to rush down to kenneth's house.heh..yea..and we all went to watch the movie 'men tu' OMG!its a DAMN nice show..PLS go and WATCH IT if u have the time..its DAMN WORTH IT!omg!the lil girl is DAMNDAMNDAMN cute..i'm falling in love with her lar!=))hahah..and went for prata after that!=))

alright..wanted to blog bout sth else..but i guess that's enough info for today's entry..heh..yupyup...i shall blog it next time then!=)))takecare pple!=)

2007-02-11T00:12:00.000-08:00

woohoo!if you're wondering why i haven't been updating..its cuz my com CRASHED..and also cuz i very busy...

alright..anyway..so many things happened these few weeks..firstly i had migraine till i nearly died..oh well..the stupid doctor gave the wrong medicine..diagnosed it as normal headache. siannnnnn....i KNEW it..but NO ONE believed..nvm..den anyway..i'm supposed to like stop taking chocolate caffeine citrus and cheese!wad de hell!ain't that practically everything?!?and it means i oni can drink like PLAIN WATER?!?!ahaha..nvm...i've been trying to abide to it...jia you.

there's so much work. i duno where to start. i duno HOW to start. i kena suan upside down by some TEACHERS. haiii...i'm studying!its jus that i duno how..and i dun understand!i trying here..can u gimme some encouragement?and stop comparing can!i'm me..not anyone else.=(

ohh yeaa...what's worse was that i got ATTACKED by a stupid BLACK BIRD.
i was studying in the canteen..concentrating..in the canteen there were less than 20 pple...i was alone on that particular table. DENDENDEN!THE STUPID BIRD FLEW INTO ME!!!!!!and i din know wad was it..i felt the wind from its flapping wings..haha..yeaa..den i turned ard..saw it on the floor..hahha..like dead..haha..i wanted to touch it and it flew away.urgh!and i got comments from those IDIOTIC GUYS LIKE...'maybe u look like a scarecrow, u're so insignificant that even the bird din realise ur presence.' ARGH!!and all those..'ehh ok not?' and when i said yarr..they replied 'i meant the bird'.URGH!!!and MR TONNY LIM LAUGH LIKE DUNO WHAT WHEN HE HEARD LAR!!!!!and cuz i said everyone is supposed to like ask me if i'm alright instead of the bird..den he said..so u mean if u bang into a tree, i hafta ask if the tree's alright?!ARHHHHHHHHHHHH..haha..okies..nvm...its all OVER.(i bet its the uniform..)

hmmm...and ohh..can people just gimme a break and stop commenting on every single move i make in my life?cuz like i said. its MY LIFE. and if u're not happy wiith what i'm doing..please come foward to tell me?dun like keep it to urself?cuz i'll never know how u're feeling?and u'll jus suffer with what u consider my f-up attitude?!?yea....if u're realli that pissed off with me that u cant stand me anymore, den yea..i suggest u come and tell me. =)

2007-01-23T19:16:00.000-08:00

yesterday was quite a bad day. i guessed during the lunch break was worst. i think my face was totally screwed up. haiii..all cuz of that stupid headache which felt like a migraine at that point of time. wadeva. thanks to all those who showed concern. blahh..pain till tears rolled down my cheeks. blahh..but it got much better in the evening..after i met buddy bdp and jian peng you.(xue ben and von) hmmm..maybe its cuz i saw them?den it became better?but yea..thanks to people like shuenlin..for being there practically the whole day. i really think she likes me lar!haha..=p yeaa...but when i came home and prepared to sleep..it got worse again..and now i'm like 24/7 feeling like so damn dizzy. i duno why...blahhh..so yea..i din go to school. blahhh..hate this.=(

2007-01-22T03:50:00.000-08:00

alright. dearest ms germaine tan yin lin is not feeling well YET AGAIN!wahhh..damn pissed..when can all this crappy 'not feeling well' thing ever stop?!?!why do i keep on getting such bad headaches?!and wadde hell!i almost FROZE to death this morning..UNDER THE SUN!!!OMG!i duno what's the damn problem with me..oh well i left school early to come back to rest. that means i missed tutorials. means i got lots to catch up. wadde hell..i hate this. this yr hasn't been a real good start. maths test today was screwed..from the START. yea..i studied for it. in fact i re-did my tutorial..but its like..NO USE???hate it.

council life is like starting to get more interesting and fufilling..hmmm..but at the same time..it means having more to do..means there's a need to really manage my studies and council work well. hmmm...everything's piling up. i really don't freaking know where to start from. i seriously wun wanna disappoint anyone. especially my parents and some teachers..boooo...but how?how can i do it the most efficient way?i'm still experimenting. blahh.

yeaa..right now..i jus wanna be able to catch up with the rest..and at the same time squeeze out time for my piano. boooo....i miss playing the piano like how i did last time.

buddy..i duno why..but i suddenly thot of the times in chiangrai where we were together all day. and i seriously miss that.=(( i will find time to talk to you soon. even if i have nothing to tell u in particular..jus plain crapping would make my day. love you buddy!=)

2007-01-19T08:03:00.000-08:00

had piano jus now. blahh..kinda sucked at my playing..but oh well..only got myself to blame. wahhh..damn stressed up cans!like..we're supposed to get our 2H2 and 1H1 pass for block test..if not we'll be excluded from council camp..WAHHH..and mervis was like so FIERCE..asking us not to even think about not being able to achieve that..wahhh!!!hmmm..supposed to have games day today..i duno why...its jus fate?we organised it for 2 times..and it rained heavily on both days...wahaha..hmmm..but jus wanna say that no matter what credits goes to CIB for planning this event!!=))esp to weihao!!three cheers!and i know it doesnt feel good having to cancel the event cuz of unforseen circumstances..hmmm..but its ok!at least we tried our best and did our part by planning right?=)

yupyup..and so we went to mac for dinner..some freaky pple were sitting behind us..haha..they lifted the chair cuz of an argument..=S hmm..niwae..we sang birthday song for yvonne.=)HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!!=))den went back to school to watch the bball match..haha..den cuz it was quite late...and me and jo'an thot we would oni be in time to watch a lil of the last quarter..haha..we ran back..wakakka..nvm...lame..den yea..nice to watch!so exciting..plus the fac t that pple were going crazy over sister..wahhhaahah...and sister was laughing to himself(unfortunately pple saw)hahahahha..yea....so un-manly lar!hahaha...yupyup..okays gotta go!byee..

2007-01-18T05:56:00.000-08:00

the only word that can describe me now is tired. so tired of everything. tired of school. tired of trying to study. tired of smiling the whole day. basically jus tired of the life i'm leading?i'm just thankful i have a great bunch of friends who are here for me. oh well. at least i know no matter what..there'll still be someone around?yeaa..that's the ONLY thing that's keeping me going. i duno if its good or bad though. hmmm..realli very tired. and i got a bad bad bad feeling that migraines are on the way. i duno why but i just feel so. if i happen to look dao. not smile or whatsoever..pls forgive me..cuz the headaches are getting worse and if its migraine..den good game. i wun even be smiling..not that i want. but i jus cant control cuz of the pain..yeaa...can try asking me to stop frowning tho.=) blahh.

2007-01-14T04:14:00.000-08:00

today is a TOTALLY boring day. last night reached home at around 3am..after mum played mahjong at amah house..was like damn freaking tired larr!by like around 12+ i already sleeping away already..den i had to be disturbed from that nice sleep just to go home..URGHHH..nvm..woke up around 10+ in the morning..den asked mum to go out for breakfast...i duno if its lucky or not..we met my dad's fren..OMG!!!they spent like 2 hours there catching up can!!!and all i could do was smile to the uncle and the aunty..and occasionally the 2 kids who were damn irritating..like fighting with each other every 3 minutes..haha...lucky i dun have younger siblings..haha...yeaa..and i spent the whole 2 hours stoning..and pretening i was listening to what they were talking about..hahha..den after that went ot buy some toiletries..and wanted to buy food..den the vendor attitude me..so i walk away..ahhaa...and i went back home and stayed at home for the rest of the day...i realise something!i dun like school cuz there's lessons..but i cannot live without going to school..haha..how ironic...and so i was damn bored..and i had nothing to do...so i practiced piano...and recorded the 29th song on my keyboard...wanted to call buddy..but she din pick up her phone..so i called BDP..heh..yay!!got sense of achievement lar!=)

hmmm..and as i was jus randomly playing songs on the piano....the emo-ness in me came out..ahha..it always happens..the piano has manymany memories..good and bad...yeaa..

i was jus thinking of my neighbour as i was playing the piano..this uncle...whom i was quite close to. i used to come home every afternoon after school and he'll be sitting at the stairs just beside my house...at night..he would go and mend the small little provision shop at the poolside..and i always go there and buy things without bringing money..and pay him when i get home cuz he jus lives opposite me. he was the only neighbour that i knew. he used to talk to me for a while when i get back and all...as time goes by..i got busier and came home later and later...meaning i dun see him as often as i do...yeaa...den there came this period of time where i totally din see him..i asked my parents if they saw him but they both said no...and i jus accepted that answer and din think so much...den one day...when i was alone with my dad..i asked again..'have u seen uncle ang recently?' and my dad looked at me..and paused. i din expect anything bad to be coming out from him..so i was like 'hello!!i'm asking you!' and dad replied..'he passed away a year ago.' ohh well..all i could say was..i was damn shocked when i heard that..i mean..why din they tell me earlier!??!why after one year den tell me..and jus now..as i was playing the piano..i was trying to remember when was the last time i actually saw him...yea...asked my parents why din they tell me and their reason was that they dun want me to be afraid of being alone at home since i always had to be left alone at home at night.hmmmm...

yup..and i was just thinking...recently..so many things have been happening..i duno if i'm just thinking too much..everything in my life at this point of time just don't seem so right..adding on to that..things have been happening to the people around me..and its like...everything jus seriously dun feel right..hmmm..are we expecting too much from ourselves?are we expecting too much from the people around us?i really don't know. all i feel at this point of time is that we really have to treasure the times we have with our love ones. stop taking people for granted. if u can give in, try to give in as much as u can. if you have anything to say to anyone at this point of time..don't hesitate anymore...do it today. do it now. cuz u'll never know what's gonna happen next. yupp. its a whole new week tmr..i just hope next week would be a muchmuch better one than this week. i know it will.=))

2007-01-12T06:48:00.000-08:00

i dun get it. what's wrong with both my parents?!there's just something wrong with them. sheesh. sometimes i jus wished i had a brother(oh well..at this pt of time i wouldn't mind a sister either)so that at least i can like express my frustration!omg!they're like GANGING UP against me cans!yeayea..my mum jus told me that i'm getting rude..like WADDE!she said that based on what happened the day she came back where my dad was realli being crazy..and started scolding me for NOTHING..i mean..to me it was nothing..jus that i wanted to bring my laptop to skl for night study..den i decided not to since here was no batt..DEN!he got so pissed..he started nagging and nagging..so i was like..i dun wanna argue with you..apparently my mum oni saw the part where i was starting to get impatient..cuz he kept on going on even after i said i dun wanna argue..WADDE HELL!perhaps its jus a good thing that i'm staying back in skl everyday to do work..or else who knows?they might jus think i'm being RIDICULOUS...cuz maybe i'll be like tired..den talk in a sian way..and THAT'S IT GERM!GOOD GAME!ahh wadeva..sometimes being too close to ur parents aint that great afterall..

ahhh..so manymany things bothering me..and i dun know what to do about them.sian diao.i cant run away from them.i cant pretend that i dun know that all these is happening.wahh....and yea..if i seem that i'm not affected at all..it might well jus be an illusion..wadeva...damn tired of living this way.someone talk to me please.

2007-01-08T07:19:00.000-08:00

emoemoemo..why everyone so emo?why is life filled with problems?why is everyone around me having so much problems?whywhywhy?and its like more often than not there's nothing much i can do to help except lend a listening ear..oh well...this is so damn sucky...yeayea..so manymany problems..and not like i dont have any...i jus dun wanna go think about them..cuz i noe there's no point..RAHHH

alright..i duno why..but i suddenly miss buddy!!!=((hmmm..maybe like the past few days she was in my house..so its like..since she's almost 24/7 with me.i dun feel it..but like..i suddenly feel the emptiness in me =( crys...plus the fact that my mama is not in spore..boohoohoo...BUDDY!!!blahhh......buddy loves buddy..seriously..i'm jus so glad to get to know buddy...sososo glad...like at least finally i found someone in nanyang that i know i can turn to..LOVE YOU BUDDY!=))

its only the first day of school..but its like so damn sian-ed...i dun feel like going to school..the only thing that makes me wanna go skl is to be able to see that few pple..blahh..its like so sian lar!wadde hell...and how can i start the damn skl term any better..than having diarrhoea on the first bloody day?haha..wadeva.siannn...someone help.=(

NYJC 29th SC Dance

2007-01-07T03:15:00.001-08:00

haha..alright.since O1's over..i believe a zillion people has watched this..okayokay..i know..i look stiff and not happy that i'm doing this..wakkaka..this is cuz mr liew jingsheng din allow me to smile cuz it was an attitude dance..and i was damn tired when we took this video!!haha..but nvm..what's done done..i put this up here so that those who din get to laugh can laugh now..wakakka..=))))

NYJC 29SC LANCERS Intro Groove.

2007-01-06T08:51:00.001-08:00

cool bananas!i love the lancers!!!ms britney!!haha.model!!and i just had to be special and wear white..wakkaa

2007-01-06T07:59:00.000-08:00

hmmm..jus came back form the tk softball gathering..feels damn weird..everyone is like so shou yet not shou..aiya i duno how to say...its like..we were SO close and all..and now when we meet each other..u can jus feel the distance..like dun even know how to start a convo and all..but nvm..at least we met..and the thing is..it was a BIG gathering!!!like pple from ancient batches ago..but i heard this thing was only by invitation..some were not invited..i was quite disappointed when i heard that tho..hmmm...anyway...think its nice to be coache's dog..wakakka..we celebrated her dog's bdae lar!!and there was a dog-bone shaped cake..

yea..this is the cake..its like bread lar!uhm..to be eaten by humans..but the god ate some too..ahha..

ohh yarr!!ms tng was there too!!omg!!so long never see her..haha..but wahh!!the whole team PANGSEH ME!haha..they push me..and i ended up talking to her alone..wakkaka..niwae here are some pictures i took there..

me and SJ

wooohoo!!US.=)

val and me!!=))))

and last but not least....haha..

me felicia and dixie!!=))

haha..yupyup..felicia came!!haha..and she was damn lame..ahha..cuz val melly and dixie said..'ohh..you jus got married yesterday!!!(as in in the show she acted)' and she replied 'but i got divorced this morning'..den i looked at her..and smiled retardedly..haha..and she was like..'ok la ok la..i know my joke very cold..'hahha..damn funny larr!!haha..anyways..it was quite a good time spent to just catch up and know that everyone's doing well and all.THANKS COACH!=)

2007-01-05T22:57:00.000-08:00

WOOOOHOOO!!!COME ON 29TH!!let's CELEBRATE THIS MOMENT MAN!!!ORIENTATION'S FINALLY OVER!!!i'm so GODDAMNED tired..haha...ohh well..no matter wad..no matter how...we did it..and we saw the smiles on the faces of the J1s..hmmm...i guess after all the small little hiccups here and there..we ultimately do deserve a pat on our backs?yupyup..but like wad mr president said..we cant be complacent and all..must improve ourselves instead!=)YAY!!threecheersandthreecheersandthreecheersforadhochiphiphoorayhiphiphorrayhiphiphorray!!!!!

ALRIGHT..i realli truely did enjoy myself this orientation..except the fact i was DEPRIVED of a chance to interact with the J1s..=(((but never mind..i think a lotta pple remember me as being the spastic retarded CMI MS BRITNEY..ohh well...all thanks to my DEAREST dance partner MR LIEW JING SHENG..who introduced me to the J1s as MS BRITNEY..and made me sing..haha..and xuewei they all were laughing the first time he said..den the 2nd batch came..and he REPEATED the SAME joke..and everyone luffed even harder..cuz its like as if we were acting..yeayea...wadeva..and i was asked when my new album was coming out..and asked for signature and all on the sentosa day..OMG...teaching mass dance is no joke..ohh well..to keep the J1s high..i cant help it but cheer with them..as a result..i lost my voice on the first day..den went to see a doc...got my voice back on the 2nd day..was so proud and happy..i cheered at the top of my voice on the 3rd day..and COMPLETELY LOST MY VOICE..wad a joke.and THANKS RACHEL!OMG!i'm like so touched by wad you did for me!love you girl!yupyup...disco night was ok...ohh well..i was supposed to act serious and like stand at the door to prevent pple from coming in and out..SOSOSOSO..i cannot take it..and started to jump like a loner around the door..ahhha..lucky got pple come find me to entertain me..hahaha...hmmmm....ohh ya..and LOST CIVILISATION is NOT A HUMAN PLACE!!oMG!!!the mosquitos there are like FREE la!u stay there..to FEED them..got 16 bites in half an hour..considering that i killed almost 1 mosquito every few minutes..and to think i even killed SO MANY!!!haha...its not that my aiming skills is good..but its just that there are so many that when u clap u get one..wakakkakaa

hmmm...okayy..i shall blog again if i have the time..on the lil lil funny things that happened..damn tired now..and still gotta prepare to go for the softball thingy later..haha..anyway...A BIG THANK YOU GOES OUT TO ALL THE OGLS..yupyup....thanks for all the hardwork and effort put in these past few days...i know its not easy..but ALL of you DID IT!!!=)=)=)YAY!!threecheersandthreecheersandthreecheersforOGLshiphiphoorayhiphiphoorayhiphiphooray!!=)))

2007-01-01T05:25:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!
woohooo!!!its year 2007!!!yayness!!haha..hmmm...oh well..had quite a good time last night counting down..with the 'rojak' gang..seriously rojak..there was me yizhe guanheng bronson huiyen justina cheryl keli jinyu tsungwei jo'an.niwaes..it was fun..haha..at least i got to know some of them better!=)hahha..den we talked crapped played some lame stuff..yea..and we walked to the prata shop...hahha..and we saw manymany weirdweird people..heh..and we were singing like we owned the roads...haha..ohh we attempted to tell ghost stories..ut it was quite a failed attempt..wakkaa..basically..it was fun..ahhaha..i was just damned suprised that my mum allowed me to stayover..wakakkaa..=))nvm...yeaa..in the morning..we went over to jia ying's playground..only me guanheng yizhe justina cheryl and huiyen went..LEGEND I TELL YOU!aha..sorry huiyen..i jus had to do this..wakkaka..so that 10 years down the road..i come back and read this entry..i'll remember this..ahha..we were playing on the swing..haha..den huiyen said..let's see who can go higher..dendenden..i tried to swing myself..and she was swing herself..den cuz i a bit the high after not slping for god noes how many hours..haha...and a bit of alcohol and all..wakkaa..so i decided not to risk my life and i said..i dun wanna play le..den i slowed down..DEN THE NEXT MOMENT!!HUIYEN FLEW OFF HER SWING AND LANDED ON THE GRASS PATCH IN FRONT OF ME!!!!omgomgomg!i tell u!i was stunned..i din noe wad to do cans!i was jus totally shocked for words...ahhaha...den when she said she was alright..all of us burst out into laughter..wahahahha...damn funny..and i said 'I CAN TELL PEOPLE I SEE FLYING HUIYEN B4'wakkaka..den they were asking her if she was ejecting from her swing..haha..wrong ah...everyone oso high..den i walked home from jiaying's house!!haha..quite cool..nvm..

yea..came home ate a bit..tried to keep my eyes open to do geog..but was too tired..so went to sleep..sorry antisocial..din mean to ps u..cannot tahan..heh..yeaaa..den after that woke up for lunch..den did geog..and went to slp again..wakkaka..den went for dinner..i duno wad was wrong with my parents..the hawker centre was SO BLOODY BIG..they had to choose to sit at THAT particular table..i was eating my dinner in agony cuz i was sitting DIRECTLY opposite 3 freaking gays!!i swear they are gays!!!omg!!!with the piercings..the way they talk..omgomgomgomg!i was luffing to myself half the time and pretending to look and my handphone and all..den my idiotic father keep on nudging me..spastic..wkakakakak...okayy nvm...1st shock of the new year..wakakakaka...TAO YANNNN....hahahha....

hmmm..the past year hasnt realli been a good one..yea..but i've learnt a lot..and yeaa...the best things that i've done so far was probably to like meet up with those tk retards..ahha..joined council..yea..it was an experience lar..went for OCIP..omg..that was by far one of the best things!!!LTC...yupyup..getting to know so manymany more people...yepyep...but i certainly do hope 2007 will be a better year..and i know it will be!way to go germ!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR ONCE AGAIN!!!=)

2006-12-30T04:51:00.000-08:00

wahhh!!!my dad is mad!i was using the com for a while..den decided to go bathe..and he also decided to bathe..so we were fighting for the toilet and i WON!but he chased me out of the toilet by knocking the door so hard and i gave it to him..AND HE SHOW ME HIS ASS!!ARGH!!!!!!

2006-12-30T04:06:00.000-08:00

hmm.i'm tired..damn sian bout everything.there's gonna be an ogl refresher on the 2nd jan from 9am-12pm..oh wells.its for them to like recap on mass dance and rehearse on the grand entrance thing.

went to school to do homework with kim today.enjoyed myself there..hmm..i cant deny that i'm starting to like being in nanyang.haha..duno..perhaps its cuz of the people and the things i do?yea...but i duno..i'm jus too tired of such hectic life..well i chose it..so shan't complain. there's so much homework to be completed!i can't believe it!its like as if homework drop from sky can!and i think i can go write story book after i finish all my homework..omg!so far i've only manage to write 2 goeg essays and 1 econs essay..and its like 5 foolscape FILLED WITH WORDS.if i'm the teacher marking..i think i'll be quite turned off by the number of words i hafta read..so yea..dun blame the teachers for giving us homework right?cuz they also haf to mark..wakakkaa..

hmmm...i seriously hope for O1 to be a big bang.all of us spent so much time and effort on it. so many arguments..so many late nights.so many hours so many minutes.hmm..and its one of our most major and important events.GO 29th!we can do it yea??few more days..hang in there people!=)hmmm..right now..we must all take care of ourselves(although i'm still like not recovering..and i dun noe why..and i damn irritated by the throat..and i need my voice to teach mass dance!!!rahhh)yea..take good care of urselves!same goes out to all ogls..ahha..drink lotsa water yar?and try to enjoy urself as much as in can during the 3 days of orientation!=)

2006-12-28T05:13:00.000-08:00

hmm.
school is gonna reopen quite soon.yesterday was a tiring day.went sentosa for ogl workshop.it rained halfway through..hmmm..nothing much to say bout the whole thing either..JIA YOU GERM!way to go!be more enthu!haha.HAHAHA.must be HIGH!blah.

falling sick again.wadde hell..alright...maybe its jus me...but its not fair!i din get a chance to get a good rest!blah.nvm.i'm so proud of myself.completed one econs and geog.way to go germ!=)

2006-12-25T05:57:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!
hmmm..shud say i had quite a 'happening' christmas this yr..compared to the previous years..where i jus went for one or two parties..with my parents...this yr...on christmas..which is today..i spent half the day sleeping!!!!waakkaka...hmmm..but had fun yesterday!=)

woke up at 6.59am yesterday..den bathed..and went to bishan mrt to meet lester jo'an yanrui lewis adeline veron darren and sebas...heh..den we waited and waited..so i asked lest if we were gonna wait for pple enough to fill one train..WAKAKA..hmm..den i was told there was gonna be a shuttle bus to fetch us there!COOL BANANAS!yea..took the shuttle to expo.woohoo!!damn cool.i duno i liked the candlelight thingy the best..it looked DAMNIT cool lar!haha..hmm..den after that went to bugis with them to have pasta for lunch..den i went back home..haha..hmmmm...and after that..in the evening..met kevin shuenlin and justina to go mimao house.OMG!his house damn comfy..wakkaka..i was so tired towards the end i slept on the sofa after saying MERRY CHRISTMAS at 12am..wakkaka..so i was quite late in replying those merry xmas messages..wakkaka..omg!his mum damn nice lar!make so much food for us..we had beef ham ribs coleslaw.....logcake...delifrance tarts...etcetc...DAMNDAMNDAMN nice!haha..and wine too!wakkaka..but i had diarrhoea..wahahhaha..like 5 times plus those at home..ahhah..yea..wadeva lar..den came home..couldnt sleep..wahaha..so went on msn till like 3 am..which explains why i slept half of today..i woke up at like 12pm..wahhaha..and went for lunch...den after that i came home...slacked...and slept at like 4pm to 7pm..wahahha....den went dinnerr.PIG!haha..nvm....went heartland mall for sakae..DEN I SAW MR LIEW JINGSHENG!!!OMGOMGOMGOMG!he oei-ed me..AND IT TOOK ME 10 SECONDS TO REALISE IT WAS HIM CUZ HE LOOKED DAMN UNCLE!!!!HE WORE HOME CLOTHES...wahahhaha..DAMNDAMNDAMN UNCLE..a pity i din manage to take his photo..TSK!haha...yeayea..tmr's ogl workshop..hope everything goes well and everyone enjoys!=)

2006-12-22T09:05:00.000-08:00

alright.
changed my blogskin..due to request from mr liew jing sheng..saying that my blog hard to read.happy now?haha..niwae..had ICC meeting den mass dance.mass dance was...i duno..good and bad.haha..oh well..guess many things happened when we were gone?haha..nvm..had fun during mass dance tho..ahha..altho trad dance was quite a disaster.den after that had consultation with ms chiew.for AQ.RAHH..damn hard.den went for dinner with renkai amal jingsheng ziwei and ben.yea.i was the only girl.YET AGAIN!haha..dun forget that i'm the CHAIRPERSON of the council's man's club!=)haha..wadeva la germaine!

hmm..anyway..yesterday i went out with darling zhaoey and kim!omg!miss them lar!was nice to be able to meet them.altho they were late AS USUAL..but nvm..i forgive them.we went swensens to eat..den walkwalk..den went newyorknewyork to eat waffle.haha..wahh..we waited near to 15min for it la!and it was ok only..booooooo...took loads of pictures.haha..we went esplanade too!haha..THE SPASTICS.haaha..den very lame..cuz the three of us wanna make a pullover together..was thinking of a nice slogan..so i said..BAN THE SPASTICS..since the three of us are so SPASTIC(ok..i noe they'll say its jus me)but oh well..den zhaoey luffed and said cannot..cuz pple will misunderstand us..WADDE HELL LA!ohh..we found a nice and cosy spot in esplanade to slack..ahah=)wadeva.lame asses la!had loads of fun.i love them!=)

hmm..had a nice talk with buddy.I LOVE YOU BUDDY!=)

2006-12-20T06:06:00.000-08:00

had O1 dry run today.wasn't in the best conditions to play the games..but oh well..i had fun.haha..was coughing my lungs out..did i mention that yesterday went out with mum(actually jus to see the doctor)den i coughed..den this WOMAN..shouted to the maid 'AIYO!WALK FASTER!CAN'T YOU SEE PEOPLE ARE COUGHING??'hahaha..den mum and me started laughing..like as if its SARS or sth.wakkaka

games were fun..i miss buddy!hmm..saw edy..haha..aiya..i miss those 14 days..although it was a long time away from home..i know i definitely did enjoy myself.ccaco came over to my house after dry run to have dinner..haha..gossipped.wakaka..i know i will miss the ccaco pple..bleagh.wad is this man?!hmm..niwae today is a good day!haha..i enjoyed myself..=)I SAW SISTER!!omg!MISS SISTER LA!!!hmmmm...nvm..haha..gonna meet up with the two retards tomorrow.i cant wait.alrighty.gotta go!=)

2006-12-18T05:28:00.000-08:00

finally some time free to blog.
somehow..i've developed the habbit of writing journals..haha..like what buddy said..i was writing this morning lar!so not me..haha
anyway..i'm so damnit glad that i went for this trip. think i learnt a lot from it!=)more importantly..i learnt to appreciate the things around me..the small lil things that i would ever have even given any attention..like having a washing machine..heh..hmm..the most memorable experience i had there would most probably be the days spent in akha village.omg..the hosts..LEGEND hospitable..and they were very nice!and i made a good fren there..and her name is none other than AKALI!my one and only buddy!omg..yea..and there were nice people in the village as well..AYO.nice lil sensible boy..to think he cycled 3hours to the campsite just to see us..and he prepared gifts for me and jo'an and gave it to us through a grade 4 fren..awwwww..
hmm..one thing i gotta say..i've never ever seen so many big spiders at once b4..and big spider webs..can u picture this..u're in this freaky looking dark toilet..everywhere u turn..every direction..there's a spider..wakakkaai'm serious!haha..oh yea..and toilet papers were supposedly banned..haha..but i cheated..its kinda disgusting...but we threw all our used paper in ziplocks..WAKAKKA..nvm...hmmm..anyway..i seriously jus hope we did make a difference in their lives.i believe we did.way to go orion!i'm suffering from post orion blues.

hmm...and i'm missing every single orion!!omg!!a very big thank you goes out to all orions.thanks for making this trip so special.it was all of you who kept me going throughout these 2 weeks.

to my beloved BSW..my buddy..ms mak xuewei: i'm reallyreallyreally glad to have you as my buddy on this trip. i guess if not for this i wouldn't even have got to know you so much better..hmm..its like..if we were in singapore..i believe we wun get the opportunity to spend so much time with each other?hmm..yea..thanks for standing by me this whole time..yea..this troublesome buddy of yours..with so MANY problems..thanks for taking such good care of me!i love you buddy!we must remain buddies okays!=)really appreciated all that you've done for me..and i can never thank you enough..like what you said..this trip would not have been the same without you being beside me the whole time!I LOVE YOU!and i'll always remember that i made a new fren named AKALI in AKHA VILLAGE!i love akali!!=))

to benben: my EX dance partner..haha..all good things come to an end..haha..thot i could continue being ur dance partner for O1..but too bad..jingsheng had to break us up..booo..hmm..anyway..i realli had fun leading the aces workout with you!without you there..i most probably would not have had the courage and enthusiasm to do what i have done..thanks ben!for making me realli step out of that comfort zone of mine!

to jo'an mer and syimah: thanks for always being around to give me encouragement and look out for my welfare!i really enjoyed myself with you guys around!=)thanks!

to lester: hmmm..haha..my fellow only child fren..haha..sounds so sad..haha..hmm..niwae..jus wanna thank you for always being there to look out for us.haha..like what ben said..you guys are looking out for us..but quietly right?!?!haha..i hope its true tho..i choose to believe..wakaka..hmm..anyway..till today i still feel bad..but thanks for waiting for me when i was having diarrhoea..haha..feel so bad that i deprived you of your shopping time..THANK YOU VERY MUCH LESTER!=)hmmm..and i know i can't thank you enough..ahha..yea..and i noe ur hair will stand when you read this..cuz there's so many thank yous..and we're like not used to being so polite to each other..wkakaka....LEGEND!thanks!=)

to edy: although i dun noe you well..but yea..thanks for taking such good care if all the girls throughout the whole trip..guess one of ur top priorities was our safety..thanks edy!you're damn sweet la!still remember the very first day we were at akha..den u thot the toilet was a common toilet and u tld us we can ask u all to accompany us to the toilet in the night..den at the waterfall..u came down cuz u realised all the guys were up at the other waterfall..den the sentry..touched la!on behalf of all the girls..thanks dude!=)

to jolyn: my bai yi tian shi..thanks girl..you were so sweet to all those who were not feeling well lar!omg!so nice of you to wake up on the middle of the night jus to ask the rest to eata their medicine..respect sia!and yup..i'll remember myself as ur mistress k?love you girl!=)

to yanrui: YANRUI!!!!haha..i reallireallirealli wanna thank you for bringing so much fun joy and laughter to me this whole trip..hmm..frankly speaking.i'll never ever imagine you to be such a fun person!haha..and i'm so glad u opened up so much..haha..perhaps being suspected of having dengue was a blessing in disguise?heh..but seriously..thanks..for always cracking those jokes..yea..13 dec..dun bluff me ok?=p.hahahahha.LEGEND.

to the rest. sebas monica adeline darren quelyn siefen seowling c.shangyi x.shangyi linda jocelyn yongjun bingqiang geokting lewis priscilla serene ruoyi jingyan adrianto. thanks for making my trip so special!

to the three beloved teachers. ms darrell mr mark and mr tonny. thank you for giving me the opportunity to go on this wonderful trip. thank you for always being there to talk to us when we were troubled and all..and thank you for allowing us to know you guys so much better..although now that we're back..it might be weird to see you guys around in school..cuz its like we were so 'close' the past weeks..and we cant behave the way we did in school when we see you guys..but i'll always remember the times we had together..be it good or bad times.thank you teachers!

THANK YOU ORION!GERMAINE LOVES ORION.GERMAINE MISSES ORION.=(

2006-12-16T22:11:00.000-08:00

WOOHOO!!
jus touched down last nite.
chiangrai was good!
actually got to use the com..for 5 min..wanted to blog..but the com kept on rebooting..haha
anyway it was a good trip!haha..so many things happened..blogged bout it manually everyday..so that i can remember the small lil things..
some highlights.
I WENT TO THE HOSPITAL THERE!den ahha...cuz of my bloody hell back..haha..but it was a good experience..hmm..got to know a few ocippers better..hmm..MY BSW!!!hha....my one and only BUDDY!!!buddy i miss you!haha..alright..i shall like update later..wanna watch star awards..haha....tata!

2006-12-01T22:01:00.000-08:00

FENGDIAO!haha..oh man...i'm going mad..packing my bag..hahaha...help someone!hmmm...i'm sure i'll miss the things here..the people.the place.the food.AHHHHHHHHHHHH..howhowhow..hmm..nvm..shall go with an open mind..hope that i'll enjoy myself there..=))to the people in singapore..takecare loads and dun miss me too much!=))

kim and zhaoey: i duno how and when..but i dun care!haha..when i come back..we must..MUST meet no matter what..haha..even if its like 12am..wakkaka..b4 school reopens..ok?we're like damn pathetic LARR!!haha...i think we realli believe in being around spiritually..haha..that's why we're still alive..wakaka..

councillors: hmm.while we're there..i guess there's a lot to be done too..realli feel bad that i wun be of much help...although like what i believe in..i'll be spiritually here..haha..hmm..if that helps..it might make me feel better..butbutbut..jia you on the preparation of O1..and those other lil things we hafta get done by next year..yupyup..and to jingsheng..haha..dun stress..ahha...anything u settle..haha..but relax k??haha

yupyup...to my family..i'll definitely miss everyone..boooooooo...WEIHE!!haha..alright...till then...TAKECARE PEOPLE!

GERMAINE WILL BE BACK SOON!haha..look on the brighter side!!!haha..u might be able to like get peace for 2 weeks!!like AT LAST!!hahahah=p

2006-11-30T05:13:00.000-08:00

woohoo!LTC was funfunfun!!hmm..except for the fact that..ahemahem..some parts were a little sian-ed..wakakka..and i got 2 'sisters' after this camp!haha..damn funny lar!my SISTERS!tie zheng and cheo hao..ahha..altho cheo hao refuses to admit..wakakaka..he say i can 'wu ru' his ren ge but cannot wu ru his sexuality..damn funny cans!hhah..not like tie zheng..ahha..when i call sister he will reply 'yo sister!'!!!yays....haha.

hmm..did quite a number of things..kayaked..wahh..LEGEND long way..wakkaka..nearly died on the way back..thanks to soon heng..wkkaka..i miss ltc..i miss calling sister..ahah..and i saw BOTH SISTERS TODAY!!!=)))hahha..oh yea.den did the log and tyre thingy..got stuck in the middle..haha..den i was thinking of how i should get out of it..wakkaa..den ms yap came..stress me oni..wakkaka..den lest oso..haha..so i shouted..'i will swing like an idiot if i let go!'den tht stupid lest say 'do u wanna swing like an idiot or get stuck up there?'wakakka funny..and i finally figured my way ouT!=)den on the way to safety i shouted 'JIA YOU XUEWEI!' to like distract myself..and she did the same to me..cuz we were both doing high E together..wakkaka...yea..loads of memories.AVALON.DAGONET.=)i wun mind staying a few more days in that mosquito infested place..wakakka..

oh well..have been REAL busy for ocip..leaving on sunday.sheesh..i wanna see that two pigs!haha..but dun have time to meet them..blahh..howhowhow..i miss them!blahh..and i'm leaving!!!and when i get back..boooooooo..gotta prepare for O1 liao..niwae..the mass dance is cool!=)till then..takecare!haha..germ says byeeee

2006-11-22T06:15:00.000-08:00

jus came back from council retreat.
damn tired.physically and mentally.
i miss ccaco. why are humans like that?
when you have it..you take it for granted.
only when u lose it, then you start to appreciate it.
by then it'll be too late.
no matter what, i will always remember that CCACO ever existed..
and how much fun joy peace laughter we had.
retreat allowed us at least spend some quality time with each other for the last time. emo-fied

so yea..time to learn to accept changes.
i'm feeling alright with this whole thing..i should be..
and i think the pple in the new comm rocks too!=)
jo'an renkai me jingsheng gary shuenlin ziwei jerold!
alright. gary that siao ginna!haha..he's damn funny lar!hmm..
yea..jus hope this is a good beginning..=)

ltc is on its way.bleagh

2006-11-17T03:42:00.000-08:00

bahhh. damn bored. i duno. just like damn sian and all..duno wad to do at home.well i can mug..but not in the mood sia..booo..

just came back from the cip thingy..wahh..damn legend..i dun mind mischievious kids...BUT..i cant stand attention seekers..ahahha..there was this INDIAN girl..not that i'm a racist..but she was the only girl..oh well..she tried to seek all the attention she could by crying and crying..den everyone showered her with all the attention..wahh..cannot take it..she cry like DAMN LEGEND..like once she got the thing she wanted..she will jus in that split second LUFF and continue running..WAHH!cannot take it..BUTBUTBUT!she did entertain us in some way..cuz rite..when she was playing at one of the stations..she saw yongjun..den she told yongjun he very shuai..wakakka..den nvm..she started crying..den all the guys went around her..to like stop her from crying..den jo'an or someone was saying she very fortunate..got attention from so many guys..den i was like..u try lo..u sit down and cry..DEN..they ask yongjun to like comfort her..hahaha..den he did as told..DAMN CUTE..haha..den the girl still continued crying and all..den duno wad happened..she like stop crying..den the both of them took photo together..ahha..den when yongjun playing captain's ball with all of them..she asked 'where's the handsome boy?'DEN YONGJUN RAISED UP HIS HAND LARR!!hahaha..damn funny..den the rest were damn funny oso..they all left one by one..and like left him and her playing with each other....HAHAHA..den yongjun say..NVM we all HANDSOME TOGETHER K??ahha..damn funny

blahh..tmr whole day got thing again..booo..

2006-11-15T05:26:00.000-08:00

wahh..damn legend.
yesterday went fish and co with 0603..haha..den MR YEO PANGSEH US!okok..cannot blame..cuz the guys wanted it a suprise..and din tell him it was FOR HIM..haha..hmm..but it was a great night cuz for the FIRST time in this year we had a CLASS GATHERING!haha..okayy..shall talk about today

TODAY!okayy..got a lot to say

the most UNFORGETTABLE thing today was maths lecture..WAHHHH!!damn malu
okayy..first was i bent down..wanted to get something from my bag..den a cough came..so i din have time to like prepare and control my cough..so i jus let it come naturally..WAHH!!it was damn loud la!haha..den the person in front of me jumped up in her sit..wakkaka..that's not the worst of the day..okayy..den that stupid shuenlin(oh i was sitting beside her)..took my pencil..duno wad that stupid girl do..she dismantled my pencil..den it flew all around..wakkaka..den she REFUSED to look for the missing parts..den i had to look for it..den found one part under the chair of the row behind me...but there was no one sitting on that row..then on the row behind was TIANCAI..ohh well..he was nice enough to help me pick it up..haha..BUT that idiot shuenlin din wanna take it from him..SPASTIC..haha..nvm..DENDENDEN!!!the CLIMAX of the day..for some reasons..i suddenly had hiccups..ahha..den i asked around for water..but no one had..so yea..i jus had to bear with it..den suddenly me and shuenlin started luffing cuz of i forgot wad..DENDENDEN!u noe when u luff..u need to catch ur breath?haha..yea..so when i was controlling..trying to make as lil noise as possible..i had to breathe..but as i breathe..the hiccup came..and cuz it came too fast..i couldnt react..and it went like 'HURRUHHHHH' GODDAMN LOUD!den the whole lt became quiet..everyone giggled..and turned back to look at me..DAMN MALU CANS!!!den i heard tiancai saying sth like he duno me..wadde hell!!hahahaha...damn funny..damn malu..den mermer keep on saying i AA..wakkaka..wadeva la!hhaha..and shuenlin like give the i dun wanna sit with u anymore look..wakaka..

den had meeting. tmr gg sentosa to recce..haha..den jiaying asked us to fill ourselves with food b4 going..so i said 'den when we hungry we can puke out and slowly eat again right?' den EVERYONE luffed at me can!!RAHH..haha..nvm...

hmm.i bet u're just JEALOUS of me..for wad reason?i dun FREAKING care!oh well..itz OBVIOUS i have more FRENS!at least more people who would help me?AND i DEFINITELY get MORE attention than you do!YOU LOSER!trying to get attention!haha..but in VAIN!!!LOSER!FREAKING HELL!dun try too hard and get the WRONG kinda ATTENTION!tht's my advise to YOU!AND I JUST HOPE YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!RAHH!!stop pissing me off..i've got a limit!

2006-11-13T05:17:00.000-08:00

siann.
had ocip meeting today..WAHH!!from 8am to 5pm!LEGEND can!!haha..it was...WOOHOO!!tiring..hmm...dad has been a lil i duno..like a bit den he not happy..den black face me..wadde hell..going to limit le..i mean...there's no GOOD reason why i should tolerate all these can!yea..i admit he's my dad..BUT!i dun really think itz fair can!oh wadeva..so many things have been happening at home..i bet he's partly affected by it..that's why he's like that..oh well..if that's the case..aint it worse?!?blahh..i'm already affected enough by this whole thing..jus that i'm trying to not show it.i'm trying to hide my feelings..i duno what to do..blahh..

gonna start having lectures from tmr onwards.blahh..sian to the max.i'm not in the mood to do ANYTHING at all..being busy doesn't even help me from thinking about everything.blah.so what's the point?!jus let me be free..and sleep my way through..let me meet the people i wanna meet..let me spend my holidays with people i wanna spend time with..ahh wadeva.i know itz never possible..i wanna be able to spend time with my family..not jus dad and mum..but the rest too..cuzz..aunt..haiz....but do i even get the chance to?i dun even get a choice..itz not like i can choose not to go out wif my frens and go amah hse or sth..i've got NO CHOICE!i jus gotta attend meetings..plan..attend meetings...laadeedaaa..yea..i'm just glad my saturdays are devoted to my grandma..yea..I'LL NOT GO OUT WITH MY FRENS JUST TO GO TO MY GRANDMA HOUSE.hmmm..haiya..i'm just troubled.duno what to do.blahhhh

2006-11-12T04:54:00.000-08:00

OH MY GOD!i forgot i had to do a public apology..to someone..or rather..something..that would never be able to read this.heh.here goes..

that day.that night.that fateful night.i came home late.around 11+..when the sky was dark and i could see NOTHING.so i walked pass the playground in my house.and i heard a crack.thought i stepped on something..but when i looked..couldnt see a thing..so yea..went home..NEXT MORNING.went to school..and i walked pass the same place..i'm sorry..i'm REALLY sorry..i din mean it...guess wad i saw!!i saw a snail..with the outer shell broken apart..around it..WHICH MEANS!i actually stepped on it the previous night!!but itz still alive..omg!felt damn bad..spent around 2minutes looking at it..until this uncle walked pass and looked at me weirdly..hahah..

today was fun!ahah..went to eat in a weird restaurant..celebrate uncle's bdae..EVERYONE THERE WERE OLD MAN AND WOMEN!haha..AND HOR!!!THEY ALL BLOODY HELL LOOK THE SAME!and this guy in the mext table..guess he was around my age..poor chap..only young guy in the whole table..he looked pissed to be in that table..damn funny..den after that yea..went ot get some other things done.

hmm..so many things have been going on.be it council or at home..ohh well..council..i admit this two weeks i haven't been very active..i mean..i seriously dun mean it to be like this..i was really ill come on..and in fact..i've not recovered fully..have been pukin and diarrhoea-ing..u might say then why am i going out?oh well..at least i've got a heart..moreover..these few days..i've been meeting people MORE important than u in my life?people like kim and zhaoey?so u think u're so impt?wadeva..i might be giving u attitude..but pls take a look and reflect on ur part too..blahh..so many people are starting to piss me off..and apologies to ben jo'an mervis and xuewei..i know i havent been contributing much..but i was realli not feeling well..and i realli need this break..cuz there's so many things that's gonna happen..i need to recover..SORRY..=(and at home..i'm jus pretending i'm not aware of anything..i know everyone(the adults) are constantly discussing..perhaps i'm the only kid who noes..but..wadeva..i cant tell anyone..pls get me out of all these crap..freaking hell...council....wahhh..wadde hell...no brains!F**ker..pls reflect on urself b4 u make any comment can!

2006-11-11T10:22:00.000-08:00

oh freak. i'm so gonna turn FATTER by the day!!
have been eating damn a lot..
thurs: went swensons with kim and zhaoey
fri: went fish and co. with cui fang and clara for lunch. went cafe cartel with shuenlin ky kevin justina james.
sat: went tao's for dinner with CCACO!=)
sun: my 'dua pek gong'(uhm..not the god tho.haha..jus an uncle..i like to call him that) bdae lunch.
next tues: going fish and co. with 0603!=)

how am i not going to get fat at this rate?!?!

ohh wells. perhaps i could. cuz have been realli sock..din eat much..hahaha...den hor..last nite..puked my lungs out can!den my throat like got scratch marks..hell noes why..den today laosai..haha..wadeva..

niwae..had fun at CCACO dinner!hope the rest enjoyed the food..hmmm...but it was the company that made the day special.oh wells. i'll definitely miss this bunch of people..altho we'll still see each other.BUT..things wun be the same ANYMORE..yea..i know that. everyone noes it.

for some weird reason..my heel is swollen..haha..itz pain can!haha..like idiot..gotta walk on the ball of my feet..spastic..I ALREADY labelled as a RETARD..still wanna make me worse..haha..

i miss tk. terribly.

2006-11-09T04:22:00.000-08:00

pw is over!REJOYCE PEOPLE!omg!haha..damn nice..shiok.now all the IMPORTANT stuff for this year is OVER!yay!=)

i met KIM AND ZHAOEY TODAY!YAYYY!!!hmm..went PS..heh..swensens..haha..ateateate..complaincomplain..gossipgossipgossip..OMG!how the hell i wish that i could live this kinda life the whole year round!rahhhhh..nvm..hmm..and so we did wad we always love to do..we went to take neoprints..haha..damn funny..i shall upload the pics soon..hahaha...we never ever get to take any decent pictures when u put the three of us together..hahaha..hmmm...den the wuliao us...haha..went back to swensens AGAIN after like an hour..to eat banana split..haha..DEN HOR!these bunch of Nanyang girls' girls.kept on staring at me!ahha..I WONDER WHY..after much thoughts..i was thinking perhaps they could see the NANYANG trait in me..haha..since i'm in NANYANG JC..wakkaka..okok..pardon me..jus recovered from fever..itz liddat one..the brain spoil...yarr..spoil more than normal..heh..den yea..tht's bout it..the rest..no need to blog..hahaha..=)haha..for me to noe can le..hehe

i lead a hectic lifestyle.rah.there's some curse NY has put on me.haha..why do i keep on falling ill AFTER i come here?!?

2006-11-06T05:51:00.000-08:00

hmmm.
life has been quite monotonous..wakakka...how interesting life can be when u're like damnit sick?i still dun get tht irony..taking the flu jab a week ago and contracting flu NOW!hahaha..wadde hell..wad is this crap la!

well..morning..woke up around 9am..den prepared to go to skl..for GM..oh well..GM was quite interesting today!=)nvm..den went mass lunch and yea..went beach road with the rest.cabbed back with mer and mr lim..and yea..i'm here..

hey to all my dearest darling CCACO..the well known long baobaos.i jus wanna say that no matter what happens to us..we'll always be there for each other..in our hearts we'll always be long baobaos k?yea.and i noe that no matter where i go.in my heart.CCACO will stay.now and forever.loves.

2006-11-03T21:13:00.000-08:00

had chinese yesterday..well like wu lao said..this would most probably be the last zuo wen i'm gonna do the rest of my life..which is QUITE true..altho pple might think i'm a CHEENA POK..which i think is factually wrong..haha..i dun think i'll be so CHEENA to write another zuo wen for the fun of it..eeek!

and i was damn sick the whole day yesterday..went to the toilet 3 times..nearly had no time to complete the paper sia!hhaha..den went for lunch with the rest..and ocip meeting..was coughing my heart out..and sniffing like no one's business..yea..so went to see dr greg at night..haha..damn funny..to think that he actually took my temp..smiled and looked at my dad..den he said 'BOY!shez realli sick!' ahaha..TOOT!den the both of them luff together can!hmm..my temp was 38.6deg..SEE!no one at home believed i was sick!haha..if i put that glum face..they'll say no good..den i try to act as if i'm okay..and tell them i'm not feeling well..they dun believe i'm sick!!!boohoohoo..haha..lame ass..and i told my dad..a bit more to 40deg..den i'll become SOT.hahaha..

so yea..din make it for ocip meeting..still a lil feverish..sian diao..today's jus gonna be a slack day since i'm gna be drowsy 24/7.hahaha..

2006-11-01T06:33:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!!

today's a happening day can!!hahha..damn nice..bet mum was touched by us(me and dad)hahaha..us sounds like so many pple..wakkaka..the day started off with me going to school to hand in the i&r and gpf..haha..oh well..was REALLY tired..cuz last nite stayed behind after the halloween thing to talk a bit..till like 12+!haha..damn shiok!=)huai2 jiu4..den yea..after that supposed to have op rehearsal with mr yeo..haha..but my script was somehow not ready..cuz wenzhong NEVER READ HIS EMAIL!!wakakaka..damn funny..he ask me to reply him..but he din check..wakkakaka..nvm..yea..haha..and minghui wasn't ready also..haha..we were like DAMNIT scared to tell mr yeo we not ready..so BRAVE me..went to tell him..HENG ARH!haha..nothing happened..so we decided to do a dry run instead..lame..haha..den after that..dad called to ask me to go buy things with him..so i agreed..DEN HE MADE ME WAIT FOR NEAR TO 2HOURS!!ahaha..i jus roamed around the school like some lost soul..den played piano..den joined the councillors for a while.they asked me for lunch..den i said gotta meet dad.hahahha..LEGEND..somehow i expected it to happen oso..was eating with dad at j8 mos..DEN HOR!when i walked out of mos to the mac and kfc direction...I SAW THIS BIG BUNCH OF NYJCians..kk..b4 that i saw kenhan and hongqing..haha..SO THAT BIG BUNCH OF PPLE consisted of the WHOLE GANG of councillors i was supposed to go lunch with..and the other table was shuenlin kaiyang huiyen justina.......the 0605 peeps.haha..damn LEGEND CAN!WAIHAI!!!(the english version of weihe)..so yea..kena suan..ben asked if council was more impt or my dad..i said..MY MUM AND DAD LA!den he asked me to shooo..wadeva la!niwae..den i walked to shuenlin..den asked her if she wanna go walk with me..den she agreed..so we went to buy cake and present for my mum..den after dat met up with dad and went home..

dad bot LOTSA food..and this steamboat bbq thing..den yea..supposed to prepare the food..den he said wanted to go jurong to take the soup base..so yea..we went..and b4 that..went queensway to collect his jersey..BUTTT!!!!GUESS WAD!cuz we went home first..so i like took a nap in shorts and my ny BLOUSE..den dad woke me up and gave me like 2minutes to go to the door?!?!so i din have time to change shirt..haha..den continued to sleep in the car..when we reached queensway..he din tell me it was queensway..UNTIL i walked out of the carpark..den i realised.DEN DAMN MALU!cuz i wearing SHORTS AND BLOUSE!AND SLIPPERS!!!hhaha..den nvm..that's not the WORST!it was seriously damn unglam..DENNNN!!!when i walked into the shop that my dad was going into..WAHHH..i saw 3 brown figures..haha..DEN IT WAS THE NY BBALLERS!!lester bronson and samuel..i think..DEN!!!i saw amal and mermer!EEEEE..DEN AMAL SAY I UNGLAM LARR!!!sheesh..ahhaha..nvm

yea..den came home..thot i could finally slack a bit..DEN..dad started panicking..hahaha..cuz mum was on the way back..ahhaha..damn funny..and we started to unpack everything..den MUM CAME BACK B4 WE WERE DONE!haha..den she asked..GOT PARTY HERE AH!hahaha..damn funny..niwae.had a good time!(=i love mum and dad!=)

2006-10-28T19:20:00.000-07:00

mentally drained..
the injection was haha..alright..jus that..duno whether issit the nurse or my mum..cuz my mum ACCIDENTALLY hit me right on the spot of that 2 HOLES left behind by the injection thing..now..itz swollen like nobody's business..

still very tired..haha..so not gonna blog now..hehe..

2006-10-26T05:47:00.000-07:00

judgement day.
around 80 did not make it.
a few of whom are my friends.
jus hope they're fine right now....

hmm..but i gotta say that i'm glad 0603 moved up as one.only thing.i jus reallirealli hope that the class spirit could be improved.well..we proved ourselves and our teachers wrong..itz not true that we're not studying!yup..so we got to the top!top class in arts!=)also, i'm glad to say that 29th did okayy too!=)yup..together as one, we'll make the school a better place in the coming year!we oni merely have half a year more with each other..so let's work hard together ya?=)

omg!my dad's lame!the doorbell rang..and he though it was my handphone ringtone..wakakka..and he did not go and open the door..haha..until i asked him who was it at the door..haha..den he rushed to it..oni to see his poor fren's maid waiting outside for near to 3minutes..wakakaka..

woohoo!so today..after results..i went out with huiyi and gang..haha..we went VIVO city!!haha..damn funny..haha..the guys were OBVIOUSLY trying HARD to attract attn la!haaha..damndamn funny..they stopped in the middle of the shopping centre..and looked and pointed at the ceiling..hahaha..so some pple..followed them and looked up..hahha..den some..pretended to look as if they were not interested..but peeped..wakakka..damn funny..den when we went to the esclator..they tried to act as if there was something at the start of it..and they had to lift their legs high up to get over it..ahha..and we were walking in a single file..ahhaha..funny and cute pple la!haha..alright..realli glad to have got to know these pple..at least i have people hu can make me luff now..=))

i still havent blogged bout the wedding!!!i shall..soon..ahaha..maybe tonight i'll blog bout some other things..if i'm free...haha..i must go and get myself mentally prepared for my 3 injections tmr la!haha

okayy.i shall end of this entry with some LEGEND stuff..
someone please explain to me why.why from the start of my council life..i've always been in the same group as lester and jingsheng?!?!first..council camp, all 3 in astraea..den teacher's day..all 3 in programme..but js got transferred after a while..DEN open house..all 3 in the adhoc..AND NOW!!!orientation 1..ALL 3 IN GAMES COMM!wadde hell!
that's not all..i can't believe it..i'm going to go on a protest!!!i'm in the same group as MR LESTER CHEE HUI MING FOR LTC!!!!!!!!!oh well..i refused to believe that..to the extent tht i din wanna look for my name in the column his name appeared..haha..BUT..i sad ly found it there..WADDE HELL!!rahhh...someone explain!hhahaa

2006-10-24T08:05:00.000-07:00

ahhh!i wanna blog bout the wedding!but i got no time!rahh..plus i havent got all the photos..so i'll blog bout it real soon!=)

was realrealreal tired yesterday.perhaps cuz of all the things coming in..like had ocip thingy to little india, and wedding(not mine la!)okay..i cant wait to like blog bout the wedding!!!

alrite.was real tired on monday.i'm terribly sorry to those i might offended(if i did).cuz i was realli out of my mind that day.and i guess i was half dreaming the whole day?heh..but it was one of the better days in school cuz shuenlin was with me the whole day.oh well..how nice if she was in my class..haiii..den there was games day.hmm..rained..but after a while it stopped..lucky la..if not i think no more days to postpone le.i stoned like a zillion times while refreeing?haha..sorry jingsheng..realli sorry..that poor guy..tsktsk..but i noe wad he hears wun affect him much..rite?haha..call ms chiew if u need dude!hahahaha...anyway..i think overall..it was a job well done..yea..=)

i'm tired.mentally tired.so much things to do.i cant believe alevel chinese is like NEXT WEEK!freakshit!yea..so many things happening.

pushing my limits.have i changed?i duno.i think a some people might think so.but personally i dun think so.perhaps itz cuz my perception of some people changed?that's why i'm changing the way i behave a lil?i realli duno.but if i changed for the worse..could some kind souls please wake me up?

alright.i've been thinking..really thinking hard.i don't see a reason why i should be treated in this way.and i seriously duno wad kinda reaction u want from me.i dun realli think i ought to be treated this way, and i dun even think YOU urself would like to be treated like this.the worse is..i dun tink u even noe that by doing wad u have been doing..u're actually starting to piss me off..and reach my limits.and most probably, u wun even realise..cuz i dun think i'll ever go u to tell you bout how i'm feeling.CUZ I NOE THAT THERE'S ABSOULUTELY NO POINT!cuz u most probably wun even give a damn to hear me out?or maybe i'm wrong.u might hear me out..but u'll either go tell someone else bout it?or u'll jus say u'll take note of it but do nothing bout it.oh wells.wad else can i say?pretty much nothing.i guess even if u're reading this..u wun noe that i'm talking about u!cuz u dun even noe bout the existence of my blog.ah wadeva.thinking bout this jus makes my day worst off.freak.

2006-10-21T09:23:00.000-07:00

RAH.
alright.in a few hours time.dearest ah peng korkor is gonna get married!=)
haha..hmm..okie..itz a happy occasion..but it jus reminds me of the days all of us used to spend in his house.his double decker bed that he shares with ah kuen jiejie.the RETARDED games we used to play..omg..i jus cant forget that game..where we'll hang a blanket to cover the whole of the bottom part of the bed..and we'll all hide inside..den one person will be outside..and reaches his/her hand behind the blanket..and grab one of our legs..and hafta guess hu's leg is it that he/she is grabbing..OMG..itz a damn funnny game. and those lame games that ah peng korkor will come up with. well i must say that these few years..we haven't really been interacting a lot with him..but recently when we got to talk to him..it was REALLY nice.yup.=)..and i miss it. although this time..we din get very involved in his wedding things..but yea..i noe we'll all be happy tmr!=)cuz the family gets together for a good reason!yupp..and i jus wish they'll live happily ever after!!=)

2006-10-20T07:53:00.000-07:00

busybusybusy
somehow..ahha..i'm trying to run away from reality..wakaka..trying to tell myself i dun actually have a lotta things to do..ahah..ohh well..but itz NOT true at all...i've got PEEEEDOUBLEYOUUUU..haha..ocip..and yea..somehow..council is getting more and more interesting!got so manymany events..movie night and games day..haha..and yea..i've got 3 days to file and touch up the minutes of meeting for the WHOLE YEAR!haha..U GO GERM!haha..quite very the MENTALLY DRAINED LA!haha..okayy..i think i should like start blogging in PROPER AND PERFECT english..rahh..i failed gp la!haha..rahhh..why did i fail gp?haha..nvm..part of learning process...

alright.today had OP rehearsal..damn glad our slides were okay la!=)den after that..supposed to go out with alex and mummy(godma)..but mummy couldnt make it..so my own mummy..haha..wanted go lunch with me..den WAHH!damn legend!haha..normally when i want to find pple to eat with me..no one would be eating..den hor!today hoR!so many pple ask me la!first..huiyi and gang asked me to go wif them..den i said i gotta wait for mum to call me..den i ask them go 1st..den they say i PANGSEH!haha..wahh..feel damn bad la!den after that yvonne tld me councillors gg ikea..ask me whether wanna go not..den after that mr anti-social(guan heng) oso ask me to join him for lunch..haha..den my mummy PANGSEH-ED ME!!!haha..den i msged huiyi..den she called!and tld me they havent left..and i went wif them..ahha..fun and funny pple..made me luff till i cannot stop..i oso duno y iluff till liddat..blame it on my stupidity..believing that the 3 guys are 18 and non-singaporeans..URGH!..haha..and for the 1st time in my life..met someone so amazed by people calling me germ..wakkaka

den after that went to eat dinner wif parents..wahh..damn troubled..sunday i got no decent clothes for the wedding la!haha..SHEESH..den jus now like had to search for clothes with mum..but CANNOT FIND!diedie..howhowhow?hmm..den at the place we were eating..damn funny..this guy..brought his guitar to the coffee shop..den he play at the coffee shop la!so weird..den he kept on looking over..haha..maybe like he was checking if anyone was looking at him play or sth..so funny..hah..nvm..okayy..i gotta go!tmr gg little india........haha

2006-10-17T17:13:00.000-07:00

sian-ed..totally sian-ed..come on..what kinda thing is this..i hate it when people do things without telling me the reason..itz like..whatever i do..no matter how angry i am doing it, as long as there is a reasonable reason for doing so, i'll force myself..and not but anygry doing it or whatsoever...i duno wadz wrong with u la!by doing so..u not only made me pissed that i have to do this...u made me lose that respect too!but i dun even think u actually give a damn.

booo.okayy..i cant wait for this sunday.i duno..altho i am not very involved in this whole thing..not like the last time round..ahha..but i still cant wait..heh..its ah peng korkor la!hahah..so...funny..haha..i duno..he's getting married la!damn cute can!!hahaha.

tell me that what i'm doing is right.and tell me that what i think about you is right too.

2006-10-17T08:44:00.000-07:00

tired.sian.why are you so sarcastic?!?!cannot means cannot la!wadz ur problem?!haha..nvm..dun spoil my mood..i had a great day today!!!=)))
I MET VAL!!!OMG!I MISS HER CAN!AND I LOVE HER TO BITS!!!!!!!
thanks val..and thank rachel!=)
thank val for spending so many hours with me..jus to tok..and to say everything i had to say the whole of this year..it realli feels good to know someone in this world actually feels the same way as me..i'm jus so happy to meet u today!!!=))
and thanks rachel..for reserving that orange shirt for mee!!!!=)yupp..and yea..for reassuring me that u'll always be there to listen to me!=)
yupp..i'm jus so happy today..how i wished i could always be this happy.i mean i can..well..at least i can choose to seem happy?haha..i duno..=)

2006-10-16T07:39:00.000-07:00

judgement day.
i dun like that feeling.
mental and physical torture.
sat there for like 3 long hours, which actually passed quite quickly.
i duno whether anyone would be reading this.
i'm not actually interested in my own results.
but rather, i jus hope to be able to see everyone of my frens going up next yr.
on the surface, i may seem that nothing is bothering me..
but i really really do not wanna face that situation here i hafta see myself or my frens being left behind.
blahh..why do we hafta go through this?!?!
thanks to those who wished me luck.
and thanks to tanny and huiyi..hu were there to like silently scream with me b4 we got our papers back!=)love

2006-10-15T08:17:00.000-07:00

hmm..been hearing quite a number of POSITIVE comments about NY open house.hmm..havent had the time to sit down and reflect and think about the whole thing..after i've done that..den i'll come back with an entire entry..including those people i wanna thank=)

now rushing wr
i seriously dun have a freaking idea wad the hell i'm doing
gonna receive results tmr
not realli looking forward to it
pray for me please.

2006-10-13T07:46:00.000-07:00

woohoo.
open house jus ended.pretty successful.=)tht's something to be happy about!=)
alright.real tired.now that i've one less thing to worry about..fell so much better.
and also maybe of val..thanks gurl.i love you!thanks for all that u've said to me..it meant a lot to me.at least i noe that whenever something happens..there'll always be someone there or me..yeayea.i hear voices..thanks kim and zhaoey too..altho the both of u POKS always digress and tok about some OTHER IRREVELANT stuff..haha..hmm..
now there's only ocip and pw left.

its almost ONE YEAR since i left tk.
ohh well..time realli flies.and it seriously din feel like a year.thinking back..i also duno wad the hell i have been doing these past months.hmmm..and i realireali miss tk.blahh..and guess i have to give that mass visit a miss cuz of council.boooo...nvm..as long as i get to see the pple i wanna see..i'll be happy.=).booo..suddenly feel like doing the tk philosophy..AHHH!!!damn shiok.and the anthem..AHHHHHH..I WANT!...nvm..i will one day.maybe next yr's orientation..i shall crash!haha..and go lead the cheers again!i miss those days..haha..when the whole hall is like damn quiet..and u stand up with ur frens..and u start the 'pompomcha' thing..and from one..to five..to hundred..to the WHOLE HALL..den everyone will start cheering..den WAHH..and u continue shouting..and pple reply to wad u say..damn shuang..omg!!!

okayy..maybe my dream would be to make ny cheer like tk?hmmmm...BIG DREAM=)

2006-10-11T06:30:00.000-07:00

no.
i'm not angry.
jus a lil pissed.
very disappointed.
i duno wad can i do now.
i'm feeling it.i'm feeling the pressure.
i'm getting sick and tired of the life i'm living.
i'm getting sick and tired of *******
so what if i'm able to convey my views and opinions about things?
no one will listen.
they'll think i'm trying to be funny.
they'll think i'm nuts.
oh wells.this is wad happens when sometimes you dun set ur tone right at the start.
i duno if i did.but i noe nothing i do now can change the situation.
i used to be able to openly say things.but not now.
everyone there seems so unapproachable.
even if they're approachable.i wonder if they really listen to wad i say.
or are they jus listening out of listening?
sometimes i feel that the people outside are actually more supportive of me
i miss val.i miss kim.i miss zhaoey.=(((
but nothing i do now can bring them back to my side everyday.
i jus want to be away from all these things.please.

2006-10-10T07:12:00.000-07:00

sian-ed..i jus cant take it anymore real soon..so many things going on...blahhness..

thinking whether i shud retake that freaking hell piano exam.blah.den wadde hell..open house, pw, ocip.rite now..i jus feel like leaving everything aside..go hide myself all alone in some corner of this world..get myself away from everyone.i'm jus so....i duno....feeling real emo these days..so i'm realli sorry to those pple if i did offend u guys these few days..dun take my words too hard..cuz i myself dun even noe wad i m doing..blah.

i need you best fren.=( i need to talk to you.i'm dying here.....

2006-10-06T09:10:00.000-07:00

feeling quite..i shud say emo now...i duno..something's troubling me big time..but i just cant figure out wad it is..damn sian-ed..never in my life have i been so affected by my moods to this extent..i mean..when i jus sat alone jus now..den i as usual..started to think bout things..den became damn emo..nearly like tear..rahhh...wad wrong with u germ?i realli got no idea...

today saw damn a lotta pple..when i boarded the train..saw wee qing alighting..den on the train saw jinsheng..den saw kim's fren(melvin i think)...den after that saw shuenlin's classmates..den when i came back..I SAW WEE QING AGAIN!ahaha..

hmm..okie..there's a reason why i'm saying that i'm not me right now..i think i became a lot quieter..i duno..and today was just NOT THE DAY.wanted to go bishan..den went to the bus stop..quite sure i saw a 2-digit bus coming..so i boarded without thinking too much..den FREAK!the bus turn left..means i'm on 105..hell noes why..wanted to get down the bus..but it was too crowded.poor me couldnt move..so yea..took all the way to toapayoh..went to mrt..and got into the wrong train..had to take back..boooo..den went to trudy's house..den i forgot the floor..duno wad was i doing..i went 15, 16, 17, back to 15,17,16,1 den 18..oh well except got the back to 1st floor...i climbed the rest..bahhh..tell me wadz wrong with me?

i duno.there's many things i wanna say.i duno where to start.i duno who to tell..i jus feel so helpless.why do people behave like that?no i dun expect people to treat me how i treat them.but at least give me some basic attention and respect?why are people so superficial?blahh..more of people in nanyang..no i am not shooting anyone here..i mean..i've been trying hard to find real true frens in ny that i can realli trust..except a handfull..the rest..i duno?i'm jus so.........god noes..but at least i haf that few.hmm..i duno...stop thinking germ..u're thinking too much..perhaps itz plus the many comments i haf about council oso..aha..no one to tell oso..so no point saying anything.goodnite germ!

2006-10-06T01:22:00.000-07:00

tired.haha..woke up like damnit early today..and slept damn late yesterday..blahhh...went to haave breakfast..den went to school for adhoc meeting..well i thot i was quite late..oni to realise that i was the second earliest..wakkaa.nvm bout tht..hmm..niwae..the meeting was.....i duno..not realli PRODUCTIVE in that sense i guess?haha..end up we jus CRUSHED all the things discussed in the meeting..hmm..tokked to monica after the meeting..oh well..we had lotsa same views about a lotta things..i duno..starting to get a lil 'blahh' bout this whole council thing..why oh why?hmm..how should i put it?haha..if i realli wanna tok about it..haha..i need like another LONG entry..later some pple nid 2 days to read..haahahah..so yea..maybe another day den i blog bout this..niwae..monica if u happen to read this...cheer up gurl!itz no good to be pissed for too long ya?haha..and it makes u haf wrinkles and all!!so smile k?=))yupp..

i'm just so.....sian-ed..i can do a lotta things..BUT..i dun have the mood and motivation to do anything..i'm jus tired..tired of everything..tired of schoolwork..tired of council..tired of those politics or whatsoever..why can people jus live harmoniously?blahh..and why must people have such selfish behaviours and behave in ways that will hurt others?oh well..i dun noe if i'm one of these pple being selfish..if i am..someone pls tell me..cuz den i'll hate myself..yea wadeva

ny's open house on 13 october..HCI RJ and TJ also on that day..oh well..tough competition i must say..but i can jus pray people would at least come by and take a look?hmmm..

the only thing that makes life a lil more interesting would most probably be my new mp3?haha.jus went to buy my zen v plus!=)okay..i'm tired...shall stop here.

2006-10-05T07:42:00.000-07:00

haha..FOURTH POST FOR THE DAY!!!nevermind..itz a post exam phenomenon..haha..okayy..GERMAINE SHALL DEDICATE THIS WHOLE POST TO THE TWO PEOPLE THAT MADE A DIFFERENCE IN HER LIFE!=)LOVE THEM!

here is where it all started..haha..when this retarded..'dao-looking(if she din smile)' girl came to tkgs.oh well..the first few months in that school..she felt so left out..duno why..perhaps itz cuz she was th only one in her class from her own primary school?and there were only 2 people from her primary school in tkgs..well..this means she had to make loads of new frens!ohh..she came from a chinese-speaking primary school..but tk was a DARN english school!oh well..maybe cuz she din noe how to go about making frens..so she always kept to herself and was alone..den somehow..sometime..in the middle of the sec one year..came this bunch of people on the left.=)oh well..that picture was taken when we had some cheerleading competition..BOY..this picture realli makes me luff..look at all the faces there!haha..i bet if i look like THAT..and haha..the reset looked like THAT..ahaha..no one would wanna be our frens..hahahaha..i must say all these people became muchmuch prettier..haha..yupyup..nono..not me tho..hahahah..so yea..FINALLY..germaine found some new frens..these were the people who will crap with me from morning to school ends..ladeedaaa...yea..but naturally..in a clique..u cannot like avoid being closer to a few people..hmm..guess in my whole tk life..hmm..i was closer to kim zhaoey melody and caitlin?i mean not counting the softballers la!yarr..that one is another thing..hmm..yea..den came sec two..and i can still remember the times in sec 2 when the teachers try SO HARD to physically seperate me kim and zhaoey..hahahah...like seating arrangement..wakakka..but in vain..COME ON!even if u put me outside the class and them inside..i think we'll still talk la!haha..i oso duno how come we got so much to talk about..yea..
den it was streaming year..we all mugged like shit..haha..or maybe not..hahaha..opps..

sadly..kim me and zhaoey din get into the same class.=(but i was in the same class as melody and caitlin!haha..so maybe that was why i was closer to them oso..yea..hmm..and so i was in 4/5 zhaoey in 4/6 and kim in 4/1..rahhh..den me and zhaoey always complain that we physically seperated from kim..cuz her classroom very far..haha..but no lo!cuz the freako and weird me will walk all the way to the kim's classroom side toilet(not to see her..but cuz tht toilet got soap..wakakka=p)yea...but as much as we were seperated..hmm..we would always meet on thursday!!cuz itz....MEP DAY!hahha...den cuz they always go recess together..but not me..cuz i too lazy to walk down..den always got prefect duty..haha..but den again..thursday is catch up day!!!=)=)we'll always go parkway for lunch..den come back late..haha..DAMN LATE..and run into class..tsktsk..still remember the 196 incident..haha..when i asked them whether 196 goes to school..no one entertained me..like USUAL..so haha..i think zhaoey reluctantly replied a yes..so i went up..and the rest followed..NO ONE REALISED CUZ THEY WERE TOKKING LA!hahah..den nvm..the bus took the turn..the turn that goes to the road tht dun go to our school..haha..DEN THEY PANICKED!haha..but the blur me was like huh?how come?hahaha..den we got down..ran to the next bus stop to take another bus..ran to class..found out itz the wrong classroom.den went to the right one..thot we were DAMN late..rushed into the class only to find out the teacher not there yet..haha..den we all LUFFED and rolled...hahaha..nvm...haha..and those were the days where we will move all the tables and join them ALL TOGETHER..haha..like a row of 8?hahaha..den ms sim will come in and ask 'why are the tables liddat?' den sometimes they insist we seperate..den we'll jus leave a 1cm gap and say we are seperated..hahah..den we'll always try to attract ms sim's attention when shez teaching..haha..by waving..disturbing each other..and everything.haha..they'll purposely eat in front of her..but most of the time she wun see..hahahahah..damn funny...okayy..the first photo is the haha..the people hu joins tables together..and the second..ahha..is US..haha..uhm..yea..most pictures we take are liddat..very little decent photos of us..heh.

den sec three was also the year i went for chem tuition with kim..and yea..same piano teacher oso..haha..okie..chem tuition was CRAP..haha..the standard old chang kee curry puff b4 lesson..and all the retarded neoprints..haha..wadeva..but we certainly enjoyed each other's company..rite kim?

yarr..and dearest zhaoey was my piano duet partner!!!=)=)=)=)hahaha..since sec 2 la!HARD CORE LA!okayy..and me zhaoey kim and caitlin were known for playing military march..hhaha..nvm...that pic was one of the practices we had in zhaoey's house..ahha..we'll always CHEONG one nite b4 the exam la!hahaha..damn fun=)..yea..and still remember during sec 2...zhaoey and me played this easy peasy piece..'the rocking chair'..haha..den on the exam day...the both of us never bring score la!hahaha..cuz i thot she brot and she thot i brot..ahha..all act smart..think we can read each other's mind..wkakaka..but instead of blaming each other and get pissed and all..we started luffing and said..nvm la..haha..jus try?wakkakakka..den guess wad?!!?OBVIOUSLY we both forgot some of our parts along the way..but we scored quite well la!den our teacher wanted us to play for the asthetics festival..uhm..some event..den we gotta play for the school kinda thing..like it'll be BROADCASTED through the PA system..hahaha..yarrr..we jus luffed our asses off..wkakaka..and so..GUESS WAD!!haha..the UNBELIEVABLE THING!ahahahhahah...we FORGOT WE WERE SUPPOSED TO PLAY!haha..so we din practice for the event..which was like weeks after our exam..ahaha..den cuz we din noe..we din bring score..den haha..the teacher came to find us..and said t was our turn soon..AHHHH..hahahah..can u imagine?we were jus SHOCKED..haha..so we jus pia..haha..got A LOTTA MISTAKES..both of us stopped for one whole bar..haha..but not stop together..so no one realised except the both of us...ahah..so we were luffing throughout the time when we were playing..hahha..good old memories...

during these four years..i guess quite a number of incidents happened between the three of us?cold wars..quarrels..everything..but i think it made us much closer=)i realli duno wad will life be without them..hmm..one thing i must say..that two...haha..at a certain point of time..both of them were..AHEM..quite occupied with guys..hahahhaha..den they like NEGLECTED POOR ME..haha..not realli la..but yarr...nono..i wasn't jealous..haha..nvm..yea...and the four years jus passed like WAHHH!!damn fast la!and i must admit..they're the only ones that can make me smile when i'm sad..and the ones that i'll jus cry in front of if i was realli sad..=)and yea..

oh well..and the saddest part of everything....we are REALLY seperated now..how i realli wish i could have at least one of them with me in nanyang or sth..i noe itz not possible..but yea..i jus realli hope i can see them everyday..i mean i dun haf to see them everyday..but knowing that they're around me makes me smile.yarr..tsk..hmm..so yea..that explains why i was so irritated when they din wish me happy birthday..haha..cuz i realli wanted to get to see them that day..haha..yea..and i shall jus upload pictures zhaoey sent to me..yea..since i already mentioned what they did for me..i wun repeat..haha..yupp..this entry is long enough..and this is FOR THE BOTH OF U K!=))..

they came like damn early but din come to my house..so they decided to take pictures WITHOUT ME!

another one..lucky the guard din catch them la!mad pple!hahahaha..(i'm jus jealous i'm not inside)

where is germaine?!?!(at home waiting..suspecting they're coming.haha)

and while i was waiting at home..they still had time to PLAY IN THE PLAYGROUND!haha

but they FINALLY CAME!!!

my cake!

can u see i'm luffing..cuz i posed for this picture..hahahaha

realli wanna thank the two of u..that's like one of the widest smile i had since god noes when..or at least the most real smile?cuz i was realli happy?=)

in nanyang lift..heh..they were like crazee la!hahah

somehow..these two old farts were damn amused by that black and white thing behind us..haha..

somehow..i like this pictire very much..
JUST WANNA END OFF SAYING....
no matter what happens..germ will ALWAYS be there for the both of you..yupp..i noe u noe..=)and i LOVE THE BOTH OF YOU TO BITS!=)nothing can replace the both of u....thanks once again for everything..=)LOVE zkG=)

2006-10-04T21:36:00.000-07:00

haha..how could i forget?i had a fourth cake!uhm or rather..birthday pao as my cute lil cousin called it.. itz the longevity pao thing?haha..i duno..damn cute la!my uncles idea..hahaha...yar...i'm so tired...haha..ohoh..got more pictures!!!haha.so dun to upload pictures..ahah..i think i'm so boliao la!haf been playing hearts on the computer..haha...ohh..hearts jus somehow remind me of that stupid indian poker and idiot game that the councillors taught me..SO LAME CAN!haha..brainless games..wakakakakka...

and while packing my room..haha..i decided to like take a picture..haha..so u wonder why all jc students are mugging so hard?u wonder why all J1's are all so stressed up and all about promos?here's THE answer..imagine..u had so much fun during orientation..ahha..all bluff one lo..when the school term realli starts..u start to receive chunks and chunks of notes..haha..den u think..aiya..nvm la...can wait..play first..haha..den u realise u oni got a month left..den u lay all the notes u haf out..and u see!!!!the notes i have..fills up the QUEEN SIZED BED!and mind u..maybe from this angle u cannot see..BUTBUTBUT...every stack is like at least 5cm thick?haha..HOW TO CRAM SO MUCH INFO INTO UR BRAINS IN SUCHA SHORT AMOUNT OF TIME?!?!oh well..if there's a will..there's a way..ahah..wadeva!i cant believe..and now...itz the packing up part..ahahahhha....

and this is a pic of the drinks we ha in chompchomp..when i went out with kaiyang shuenlin and justina..hahaha..i think kaiyang was DAMN thirsty when he ordered the drinks la!hhaha..damn funny..we were all damn shocked when the uncle came with the drink..hahahah...anyway..shuenlin's mum is like so BIAS!wakakaakak...she loves kaiyang la!hahaha..she gave us ribena..den oni kaiyang got stirer..den she gave us mooncake..she gave kaiyang even b4 she gave shuenlin la!!!wakakka..damn funny..think if i were kaiyang i'll be damn paiseh la!hahaha..hmm..niwae..i shall continue packing my room..hahaha..coming back to blog later..haha

2006-10-04T20:02:00.000-07:00

my boredom has reached the ULTIMATE stage..haha..realli...to the extent i had to force myself to pack my room(which looks a battlefield..hahaha..a war jus ended can!)yarr...i think humans are WEIRD..okay fine!i m weird!hahahaha..when i was mugging..i couldn't wait for this day to come..when i can slack all i want..den when this day finally came..HAHAHA..i'm complaining that i got nothing to do..ahha..lame shit..

oh well..i cant wait for sunday..so i can cuzz..when's laex ever gonne come back?!?!hmm..by the time he comes back..itz like almost a month since we all saw him la!poor him..kena tortured in the jungles of a foreign land..tsktsk..wei4 he2?nvm..for the nation..he shall preservere..RIGHT?haha..hmm..wadeva la germ!haha..

dad jus like made me so........irritated?he like told me..i dun think there's any point for u to appeal for ya music thing..dun think itz gonna work..WELL!i already said most prob it wun work if not rosy would've like done it long ago?!?!but mum wants me to ask!so waddehell!why do u hafta remind me..when i already like put it aside and dun wanna think bout it anymore?!??!RAHHH..wadeva.and WAHH!i woke up a bit earlier.thinking i could like go breakfast with him..AND HE JUST JOLLY WELL LEFT THE HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!haha..i cant believe it la!nvm...shall complain to mummy tonight..hhahaha....oh well..and he also said that i had to settle my own lunch..BLAHHH!howhowhow?shud i go on my mp3 hunt?since i got NOTHING to do today?hahaha...siannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn...save me.......hahha

2006-10-04T08:11:00.000-07:00

and so i went out jus now..went to prelude..somehow when i got nearer and nearer..kept on telling myself..'okayy wadeva happens..jus keep smiling..as much as u mite wanna tear..please do not..GO GERM!'..den when i walked in..WAHHHH..itz like damn hard la..asked if rosy was in..den they said no...WAHHH...den okayy..i smiled and said thank you...and they say they'll call me again..den at tht moment i realli went like PHEWWWW...hahah..duno wadz wrong wif me laaaa...jus can't bring myself to accept the truth..WEAK u might say..haha..but yea...its easier said than done..especially when i had such high expectations of myself..blahh

den after that went down to orchard to meet shuenlin..i reached earlier..so i went to walk around wisma..den as i walk..i was looking at things..ahhaha..DEN..i turned..saw this familiar guy in starbucks..din think much of it..continued to look at things..DEN..hahaha..i took a second look at that guy..haha..and the guy beside tht guy..DEN HAHAHAHHA...it was ah fat and jia heng..wakakkakkaaka...so i walked to them..and yea..jingsheng was there too!ahah..so i sat..den those idiots said 'hu say u can sit down?'hahaha..but i din care..jus sat...den toktoktok..den shuenlin came..hhaha..wahh..the both of us...walked the whole town la!walked from wisma to taka to heeren to cine to paragon!hahahah..den we realised we were tired..so haha..went to wisma starbucks..wahhh den we tok for like hell noes 2h?hahahaha..DEN I SAW TANNY WONG!!!haha..she sat down and tok to us oso..=)for like an hour.haha..cute la..haha..den yea..after that went to meet the councillors..went seoul garden..den came back home..still thinking if i shud buy the nano..RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...

realli bored!haha..life seems so empty out of a sudden..haha..indulge myself in music?haha..maybe i shud try composing..hahaha

2006-10-03T20:12:00.000-07:00

sian-ed..wanna go prelude..but damn sian..the thot of my results jus turns me off.

tried to put my picture at the sidebar thing..ahah..but too bad..jus tilt ur eyes a bit to ur right..u see picture of me?okay..u mite be freaked out..BUT lemme tellu a joke!hhaa..my head is real big la!u see!the picture went out of the line!haha(yupp..my head is big..so big i gotta literally squeeze it through my poor council jersey)..yarr..okieokie..damn bored at home..got headache again..it feels weird..suddenly i feel like there's nothing i can do..especially when i haf been so occupied with mugging the past weeks..

okayy..my birthday!!!!!!!

and so i thot it was gonna be a damn pathetic and sad birthday..cuz itz in the midst of the exam periods!haha..but i was WRONG..firstly..to have a good and HAPPY birthday..u must haf a funky pair of parents..was really touched..haha..mum almost had to use toothpicks to keep herself awake..hahha..she waited till 12am..den she called me out of my room to see sth..when i went out..she had a cake on the table!!! yupp and i took a picture of myself!haha..more like mum took it..hmm..i was touched..but it was FUNNY can!aahha..imagine in the MIDDLE of the NIGHT..when u're almost about to sleep.hahahhah..den ur mum asks u to go out only to be greeted by a cake..hahha..den when they start singing happy birthday..u can oni hear 2 distinct voices..hahaha..cuz there's only 3 people altogether in this house..hahah..a bit sad la!
I WANT A BROTHER!!ELDER ONE I MEAN...

and i recieved a number of birthday wishes..haha..was EAGERLY waiting for SOME pple to msg me..haha..a few that i was waiting for arrived on time..BUT...two idiots in this world..PURPOSELY never msg me..the two people that i want to receive the msg from most la!and poor me was waiting and waiting till i gave up..sadded....den ohh..when my parents were singing halfway..received a call..haha..and i called back..it was qixiang and shuenlin..hahah..den yea..next morning...i was still waiting for that two idiots to msg me..I KNOW THEY DIN FORGET...they WUN forget one la!haha..so i cannot tahan..i msged them...asking them wadz their problem how come nv wish me happy bdae..okok..dun worry..i'm not tht kinda person that'll DEMAND for a birthday wish..but these two people...ITZ A REQUIREMENT!ahhaha..den WAH..they NEVER reply me eh!walau!ahhaha..den okay...went to school to mug..wad a nice way to celebrate sia..ahah..den at first was in the classroom..den after that went ispace to find qixiang..after a while...SHUENLIN CAME!!!!with our dearest lawyer..james..hahaha..oh well..she wanted to be swet and light my cake she bought for me and walk in..but she realised a lotta pple were staring at her..SO...we went out of ispace..hahah

haha..and these were the photos we took at the back of ispace..okie..i gotta apologize to shuenlin..i'm realli sorry for eating sucha small slice..i had gastric and all..cannot eat so much cake laaaaa...haha..but thanks niwae!love yooo!=)and i brot the cake up to the rest in the classroom..heh..but den!i still dun believe that zhaoey and kim din msg me..hahhaha..and shuenlin kept on asking me to go home..so i suspected something..haha..and i was at home..rotting..duno wadz gonna happen to me..den my idiot dad knows i'm waiting for some pple at home..he IDIOTICALLY went to press the doorbell and i sprang out of bed to open the door..and he stood there..LUFFING at me.RAHH!!!..den after he came into the room...the doorbell rang again!haha..dendenden..i went to open the door...BUT..no one there!so i walked a bit further out..and i heard some retarded giggles..den the next thing..i heard a loud scream!ahahhaha..tht's cuz that two losers...ahahaha...saw me...and i saw them..well according to them..i was supposed to go back into the house and open the door again..okay..i think they realli damn loser..hahah..they had a cake with candles..but i had to provide the lighter to light the candles..hahaha.....dendenden..they each gave me a note..one on a YELLOWISH PHOTOGRAPH that was on the wall for the past YEARS..the other on this small piece of cardboard..hahaha...but still i love it..gonna take a pic of it and post it..haha..yea..i din eat much of the cake oso..cuz not feeling well..IRONICALLY....haha..the people hu bot the cake..ate more than HALF of it!ahahahh..yea..hhaha..

anyway..jus wanna say..thanks to the both of you..for coming all the way down from ur school jus to see me blow the candles..and thanks for that cake too..i love the both of you la....and i miss u two like i miss laosai-ing..haha..yupyup...
I LOVE THEM TO BITS!shall upload more photos when i get them!=)))

oh and after that..dad and mum brought me to buy my new HANDPHONE!!!SEk610i..YAY!!!a pressie from daddy..finally my dad bought sth from me..haha..every year mum will buy and say itz from him..haha..so yea..it was a HAPPY BIRHTDAY!!!=))

2006-10-03T09:57:00.000-07:00

jus got the rest of the blog done.blahh..went out with shuenlin justina and kaiyang..den went to shuenlin's house to chill.hmm..wanted to blog bout my birthday..but not in the mood now.BLAHHH..jus received news bout my DAMNED piano exam..screw it..screw the examiner..wadeva..i'm TOTALLY speechless..oh well..had to act like nothing happened..had to act like i'm alright in front of my parents..wadeva..i'm jus so BLOODY disappointed..i duno wad to say...yea..i may tell u that i'm ALRIGHT..but u noe?deep down in my heart..i'll never be alright..COMEON!this is PIANO!so wadde hell is this crap i'm hearing!?!i realli dun think i deserve that..anyway i'm gonna see rosy tmr..let's see..=(
i wanna buy ipod nano!the oni thing that is brightening up my day...oh yar..thanks to all those who tried to make me not so sad.love you guys!=)gna go out with the councillors tmr.......

2006-10-03T02:39:00.000-07:00

WOOHOOO!!!haha..new blog yet again!haha..germ ah germ..gotta learn to be loyal!haha..okie..thot this blogskin was cute..haha..i realli think those people who created these blogskins are like GOD DAMN FREAKING GOOD LA!hahaha..nvm..
so yea..finally..after much suffering(and i realli mean suffering in the sense of pain and all..cuz the poor me had tension headache+gastric) and muggin..yikes..PROMOS IS FINALLY OVER FOR ME!!!*claps loudly*wooohooo!!!ahhah..i hate school.i hate mugging for exams.i like to learn..but why do we have to be forced to do things we dun like to do?and why do we need to have exams?!so the tutors doubt our ability of understanding what they teaching?haha..that's why they gotta test us?eeeeeeeeee..so irritating..oh well..i oso duno why the hell am i so stressed up..hate it laaa..den the tension headache..can kill la!and cuz of the medicine...boo...comes gastric.okiee..gotta go out to meet my OG mates..hahaha...huai jiu..hahaha..and when i come back..think i'll like blog bout my BIRTHDAY!yay!byeee..=)